Right Kind Of Wrong

school starts back soon ..

I'm sitting on the couch at my house talking on the phone to Tammie who has been Mia for two weeks. She's been working for Joe's mom who owns her own business. Tammie has to make the money for her senior packs too. Us kids raising our selves. . But at least we are doing the right things in our lives . We will make a better generations of parents for our kids I'm certain of that .. I'm telling her I've got the money saved up for my senior dues but no money for back to school wardrobe. . We laugh .. I'm going naked ! Bet I pass . Tammie is laughing. I see Rick out the corner if my eye.. he's been painting the house for a week . It stinks but the house is looking good. He has put a lot of work into this house .. I hang up with Tammie and Rick says u should take the money u made over the summer and go buy ur school clothes . I'll get ur senior packs .. I look at him like he just grew two heads .. he said please let me do this . You deserve it. I have enough for a few things Rick I'll be OK thanks tho that's really sweet .. he says no u should go get everything u need .. Rick my senior dues are almost $2000 for everything .. I can't ask u for that .. your not asking as the parent I'm telling you I'm gonna pay for it. Now we are done with this conversation. Go shopping with ur friends . Now .. I laugh . Rick are u sure .. yes !!!! He says . I mean it go get your clothes for school and shoes what ever u need. I've got u . I call zare and tell her we need to go to the mall Stat !!! School starts back in two days !! She says I'm on my way .. she picks me up in her oh so beautiful dodge charger ! Love this car.. she says what about a change you know a new yr. A new you ... I look at her scared . She says I have THE best hair dresser and spa places .. let's go all out today. .. OK yeah I agree it would be so nice to feel good about me again. The sadness has become a way of life the past two months Jay and I have text till I think my thumbs would fall off. We have talked a lot about the future of our relationship but he has yet to make a move .. he's living back home now which is so weird because it's like it was when he first moved in I lust after him and want him but all we do is talk and text. He's hugged me a few times and kissed my forehead a 1000 times but nothing more .. he sleeps right next door again and most nights I pray he will just come climb in bed with me . But for the last 63 days he has yet to. . Zare pulls up to this fancy ass place and I tell her girl I work for you I can not afford this. She laughs yes you can cuz its on me . No zare I can't let u do that. Your not letting me. Let's go .. an hour and a half later my hair has been cut ,colored , washed and styled . It looks so amazing !!! I've colored it a dark brown with the different highlights and it cut just below my bra line.. it hasn't been this short in a while .. but oh so seriously in love with it. Zare hasn't stop saying wow for the past 30 mins . She says let's go get our nails done !!! So an hour later we have had a mani pedi .. French tip nails looks so nice ! Then zare decided we could finally go to the mall four hours later I've got a new wardrobe! ! Zare says I'm starving let's go eat !! We end up at outback steak house ! So good. I'm thanking zare from the very bottom of my heart for helping me out today ! I appreciate this so much u have no idea I tell her.. She says Melanie let me tell u some thing .. I look at her and she says first of all Jason is my sisters son and I love that boy so much , I want him to be with you , your a great person . I love you girl and I know u will be good to him. She has tears .. she says my sister was the best and she was a dam good mom . I'm here to make sure that Jason has the best life for her . I've gotten to know you so I would know if you are right for him . I've come to love you as much as "Jay " does. .. she got tears rolling . And I do too.. so thankful it's dark in here ..