Right Kind Of Wrong

sketchy

Jay says I do trust you baby and I want nothing more then for u to trust me. I look up at him. I tell him I'm scared of u .. his face fell so hard .he turns me to him and says I'm not like that baby I promise .. u were ! I say .. he looks at the floor and says yes I was . When I dated her I was mean to her I'd push her in to walls and I'd hold her up .. but I never hit her ! I just would have to get her attention. . Melanie she would fight me .. we fought all the time. And the day that I thought I was gonna put her ass threw that wall . I left her . I broke up with her and it's been over. I say you fucked her again . He said it wasn't what u think .. I look at him confused .. he says when we are together it's different. He's pointing at me and him ... I listen . He says when I was with her I want like this .. I just wanted to fuck. I wasn't in love with her .. that night she did all the work.. I'm still wearing my confused as fuck face .. he says I was mad as hell that night I was sitting in my car in her drive way . She said come around the back of her house to a table in the shadow.. she got on top . And after a few minutes I moved her . And Said I had to go. . It didn't last two minutes and I wasn't even into it . And we'll then I went home and cried . He says as he let me go and walks to the bed. Why did u even let it happen ? I ask . Because I was hurting so bad . I just didn't know what to do .. OK .. I turn back to the door .Jay leaps up and grabs me . I freak again. He says dammit Melanie please don't walk out this room. He pulls me on to his lap he's rubbing my back. Don't you see I love you so much I can't do u like that . I wouldn't. Please don't jump when I grab u. I'm just stopping u from leaving. I'd never hurt u. I never would. You mean everything to me .. OK ok .Jay I say .. I can't hear this . I'm so fucking confused right now. I have to go .. I say let me go .. he says baby .. let me go Jay now !!! He moves his hands I stand and walk away.. I'm sitting on the back porch when the girls arrive . I've been way to far in my head . Tammie joins us and we turn on the music I'm teaching them one routine and I think we can make it work . The girls agree . I say let's take 5 for now. And I'll get us some drinks .. be right back . Good part is its really cool outside today. We all sit at the table outside and drink water . I need to smoke . I have two . Wow I guess I need to go to the store soon.. Rick steps out the door and says I'm going to minute mart u need anything . Yes cigs please ..I say let me get u the money. ..Rick say no. I got this. OK . Thanks when he shuts the door back all the girls are swooning over him he did look Uber sexy today. I bet he smells like old spice too. ..mmmmm. so good. I laugh .. and tell them yes ma'am he's gorgeous. .lucky momma !! They laugh.. I shake my head as to clear his pretty self right out my head .. we all laugh out loud .. two hours later I've cleaned the house and took my shower I'm sitting on the couch with a sandwich chips dip and a Pepsi .. and a bag of candy I bought last week .. Jay has the same food .. we are watching some car show ..nice Shiney cars .. so cool. I love this pink one ... lol ... Jay turns the TV off .. I look at him .. he looks like he just saw his dead dog on the side of the road with tire tracts still on his face ... he says I want you to tell me how you sleeping with Matt came to be ... I say Jay I don't think so ...