Right Kind Of Wrong

feeling better !

Zare and I go get some lunch to go and sit at this beautiful park . We sit down at this pic nic table and we take out our sandwiches from newks I'm having the very best chicken salad sandwich ever .. and sweet tea .. she says ok spill it .. I laugh and I know my face is so red ... I'm telling zare what happen when we left her house , she fans her face with her napkin and laughing .. I say yeah wait it gets worse way worse !! I tell her what I did .. in full details. . And explain why I thought I'd bit him or scratch with my teeth ... she's full on hyena laughing at me .. I tell her I'm dying here please help me .. I don't know anything. Then I explain to her that I feel like a whore.. she stops and says hear me out Melanie ... there is a BIG. Difference in all that ... you are not a whore. A whore is someone who is with a lot of guys doing all those things .. Melanie everything u are doing is completely normal and completely on track . That is what sex is. And we all do it . Please stop feeling guilty !!! right now she says . You and Jay love each other .that's the difference. And that's all ready the ways us humans express love .. sorta weird I guess she says as she laughing ... she says Melanie all of this is so normal and very much how life is. You a beautiful young woman . You have to embrace it !! Own that shit girl!! OK I say ! She serious again . Mel .he loves you so much . Please release that fear and conserved girl... let them bitches go !! You live this up right now and you have fun in love ,do not feel guilty for loving sex!! We all do . And you will find that it gets SO MUCH BETTER !! we laugh .I raise my eye brow at her .. she can not express how wonderful it gets when u allow ur self to be his whore... I laugh so hard .she explains look men want u to be bad just for them !! And for u to appear the good girl out in public ... and we want our men to seem the bad ass in public but be good for us and sweet .. I understand all this too well ... we have finished our lunch some how with out choking ... I'm throwing away all our stuff when I turn to her and say hey I lied ..she looks at me wounded .. no see I can't go shopping Thursday I babysit after school . Till 6pm or 7 pm. I'm so sry .. but I'll take the advice and lunch as my best birthday present ever believe me !! She says that's all good . But no we can go straight to the mall right now .. besides I need to help u hook that inner whore up with some new clothes .. I laugh so hard .I swear I love zare .. zare is trying to convince me that I have to buy this purple second skin top .. it looks like a bedroom ONLY item but I have jeans on and she says that's the hottest thing I've ever seen. Besides Jay loves the color purple ... I know this . After much concideration... I've decided I could wear this to my birthday party .. it's Hella HOT !!! OK .. she's clapping and telling me Jay will love this and u may just receive ur next O. I'm dying here .she says u turn so red ..we have got to talk about stuff more often so u can be confident! I laugh ..never .. she laughs . We find a pair of jeans zare says are a fucking must !!! These dam jeans are so hot on u .please u have to!! Please .. OK ok ok. I will . I tell her I have some seriously sexy heels ..she says ok .. we head to vs.. I just need to breath the air in this store. .. it's like a drug for me ... we look at so much stuff and we sample so many scents that when we get to the car we both declared we smell like two hookers who Hadden had a shower ever!! Lol .. it's 4pm. And zare is taking me home I can't wait to see Jay ! I've said thank you 2700 times and I love you ..zare says get out my car !! Laughing .. bye as I walk in the house Jay lifts me over his shoulder and drags me to my room I drop the bags on the floor and land on my bed on my back with Jay on top me .. he's kissing me .. when he's finished I say hi ... he says hi baby I missed you . I say I see .. he says I wanna see .. I smile . He says what's in the bags u perv.... I laugh so hard. I'm the perv now ? He says what have I done to u. .. I say I don't remember. . Show me again and I roll over on top of him... he says let's take a drive .. and laughs out loud. . I'm done . I tell him as I'm climbing off of him and the bed .. no can do ! You can't see what's in the bags. I'm putting them in my mom's room you have to wait till Saturday night .. he grabs me as I'm trying to go out the door .. he says ummmmm. Imma need to approve that before u can wear it .....