Right Kind Of Wrong

starting over

Zare tells me I really think Jay is finally in a good place now . He came to the house a few days ago and mark and I had a long talk with him. He's doing very well right now. And that's because of you. Melanie he has worked so hard to be the man you need him to be , all he kept saying is he wanted to be the kinda man worthy of you. He told us your the best thing to ever happen in his life . But he wasn't good enough for you before. He's got his degree now ! She says so proudly . I look at her and cry harder I can see she loves him like he is her own son for her sister that passed away . This amount of love makes me so happy . Tears of happiness I haven't had those ever. And I like it .. zare says I wanted to do this today for you and Jay. You so u will feel as beautiful on the outside as you are on the inside . And Jay because he's scared to get back into the relationship with you because he thinks ur gonna leave him after a while .. he said she will leave me and I'll be to broken to live .. I look at her .. she says I promise you those are his words . Melanie that boy loves you so much more then u know . He's a male tho and even tho they don't show fear like us woman do they feel it . Jason wants to make the perfect life for you because he knows u have had it so tough all ur life .. but the pressure of that has made him run scared .. mark told him you can't make her life perfect just be as good to her as u possible can and she will be happy . Jason Said he's ready to work things out with you .. I was stunned to hear this .. zare said so we are making u feel good about your self so that you can show him the girl he fell in love with . I love you zare , I tell her in my tear stained voice .. she says good cuz I feel the same about you and I couldn't ask for a better person for my baby boy jay.. and my boys adore you . Awww I say .. I love Braden and mason !! We eat our meal and we even have dessert ! I'm full and happier then I could even imagine. . While having dessert I tell zare my birthday is coming up soon .. she says wow 17 .. I remember that lol .. what are u gonna do for ur birthday she ask ... well I want to have a small party just my close friends at my house . But party's turn it to drama fest... she says yep.. and raises her eye brow as we remember my girl on girl session. . She laughs that night was fun! Even tho u and Jay were not in a good place. .. she says. She's telling me you know Jay was utterly shocked he told me and mark he's never seen anything like that in person and he liked it way too much .. we laugh . She say girl u have guts!!!! And bravery! ! And ur so dam beautiful. I can see exactly why Jason loves you so much and why u scares the living shit outta him. Ur perfect ! No ! I'm not I have many flaws and faults and too many fears . I'm far from perfect . She says those things make u human and your as close to perfect as I've Seen .so except it dammit !! We laugh . You think I scare Jay ? I ask .. yes he's Ben running around freaked out like a Lil school girl ! He said to mark and I she's so perfect that I'm scared I'll never measure up. What? I ask her. Yep .. girl you have been thinking ur not enough for him because he is Older and was grown .. while he sees you have ur shit together and you have goals and u know exactly what u want in life ... being that much of a woman scares men .. zare I'm so far from my goals I can't even in vision them yet .. I have two yrs. Before I'm even out if high school ... I'm still just a teen with a pipe dream.. Don't even go there you are gonna be an awesome chef one day !! And the best mom . I can see that .. she tells me .. well school in two days !! Wow . This summer has been so long .yet here I am about to start 11th. Grade ! Zare says hey I know we haven't been so successful in party's lately but we should have a summers over party ..or back to school party !! Zare loves to have a party. It can for all of you teens !! Oh come please .. she say . Hey I just had an awesome idea . U should stay at my house and we can have this Lil get together tomorrow night .. ummmm OK .. wait the best part we will have ur reveal.. huh? I ask. You know ur new look. We can go to the spa in the morning and get facials and get all did up .. and I'll invite Jay and he can be oh so wowed..... yeah .yay !!! She says. She so crazy .. but I love her ..