Right Kind Of Wrong

when ur heart is under attack

Tammie is not being a quiet as I'd like her to be. .. Tam u have be quiet. His room is right there ... I point to the wall that is between his room and mine. We are literally just a thin wall apart every single night. She looks at me and puts her finger to her mouth as to shhhh her self. I'm gonna tell u what has happen but we can't really make sound. I laugh. But I have to tell her or I'm gonna explode. Tammie has been busy lately so we haven't spent a lot of time together with the holidays and all. She has a sister she stays with sometimes. Her mom doesn't keep a place so Tammie just kinda stays here and there. And most of the time she's here at my house . My mom has come see that Tam needs us . I haven't told Tam about the spooning or hugging or kissing. She's not gonna like that I haven't kept her up to date. But maybe the details will derail her from anger... he ask me to spoon with him about 9 days ago ,and then again about 6 days ago. And then he hugged me a few times and tonight he pulled me into his room and kissed me for about 10 mins.. Tam is sitting cross legged in my bed ,listening or well trying to listen to this story. She keeps saying what .. I can't speak to loud he can not hear this. I sound like a 13 yr. Old who got her first kiss. ... Tam says OK. She's smiling from ear to ear. What was the kiss like? She ask . Tammie it was transcending! !! It was magic !! He's so freaking hot. Omg ! I fall over on the bed as to be so over dramatic! !! Tam is laughing . I'm all head in the clouds can't think straight! !! Tam Needs More. She's not at all satisfied. So... Tam. I'm confused by him. I now have my serious face on . She does too. Why? Because like when him and I are here alone he flirts with me and spoons with me ,but anytime others are around he walks around me like I don't exist .. Tam points out. He kissed u in front of everyone tonight. And during spin the bottle. Oh yeah. He did . I laugh. But still when him and I were talk a min ago he said. I'm not looking to be in a relationship, this is just two people getting to know each other. In other words. ... I'm just playing with u right? She looks at me and puts out her sad lip .. yeah exactly. Tammie I like him. But you know me. I'm not looking to have a boyfriend either. U know I can't be serious about a relationship right now. I'm just not there. And by not there u know I mean sex !!! She looks at me super disappointed. . She think sex was invented for teens. Lol. Tam he's 18 yrs.old. he's so not a virgin and the will be that moment that he tries something I'll say no. And living in the same house will be awkward! !! Tam has her ur correct face on. We have to kinda do the faces cuz all my words are barely audio. .. Tam says. Mel .. look were young and we need to have fun now. Stop over thinking this to death. Just take it one day at a time. Kissing him is fun right. Yes , then just stop .have fun. Flirt. Be a 16 yrs old happy girl who doesn't have to think of her future and being an adult yet. Mel u scare me , ur teen yrs. Passing u by . Ur gonna regret not having fun now. I give Tam the ur so right face. I get up and turn off the light lock my door and crawl in bed with my BFF. We left oh drunk chick on the foot of the bed. Threw a blanket over her. I was fast a sleep in no time. I was trying to open my eyes to the sound ,the makeup from last night was still pretty thick on my eye lids . But I feel arms wrapped around me and someone in my ear whispering wake up beautiful. .. I open my eyes finally and see Jay standing right next to my bed. I turn back to see who is holding me and whispering in my ear. Of course it's Tam. I laugh . Jay says I think I could stand here all day and watch this. He's laughing too. I lay my head back down on my pillow and stare at Jay .. as to say umm ur intruding again.