Right Kind Of Wrong

can a bitch catch a break

When we drop matt off,  Jay turn the radio off .. he's lit . But not fall down drunk .. he says u OK ? I look at him at the red light .. he looks mad . Very mad .. I say yes ..he says I'm not.. fuck. . This is bad ... can we get home before we fight please? I ask . He says we are not gonna fight Melanie .. he said in his very lit voice.. it takes me about 28 mins to get us home . I get out of the car . And Jay gets out slowly. Dam maybe he's had more then I thought. . I say come on u need to lay down .. he follows me in the house it's 2:00 am .. and mom's car isn't home and neither is ricks I ask Jay where are they .. he says at my grandpa's ... he's sick . I look at Jay he don't seem as drunk in the light .. he looks really somber .. it's weird ..I walk to our bedroom and I take off my shoes and my jacket it's feb. So it's cold outside .. and down right artic in here .. Jay sits down on the bed .. he says we made a promise not to ever lie to each other Melanie .. I says Jay I knew u wouldn't stand for me working there and I need the kinda money I make there to pay for school . He says if u needed money why didn't u ask me .. u know I would pay for it .. Jay I need $4000 dollars by June 4 th ... I'm not gonna let anyone pay for my school. I'm gonna pay for it . Myself . I say .... I don't want you to go back there ever again . He says .. Jay I have to . That's my job.. I tell him .. he looks at me hard . Melanie I can't see u there. He says Then don't come back there Jay but I need that job.. I say .. he says no u can't work there it's not you . I get loud . It's me for now !! I walk to the closet take out some clothes and grab a towel .. I take a hot shower . I hope when I get out Jay has gone to sleep . He was laying on the end of the bed when I walked out the room. I'm exhausted. I'm glad I do not work for two more days .. i think I'll skip life for two days and just sleep . When I step back in the room Jay has his arm over his face and hasn't moved .. I close the bed room door .. and start to dry off .. he peeks out from under his arm and looks at me .. he says baby come to bed like that please . Wth? I think . But I'll take sex over him hating me .. I turn the light off and I climb up on him .. he holds me to him for a few mins then he starts rubbing my hips . And pushing me down on him like grinding my hips on his lap. I can feel him ..he's ready . I move off of him and pull him up to me at the head of the bed . He says wait one minute baby . He gets off the bed .. he's back in the bed now .. he start rubbing me .. I says Jay are you drunk ..he says I guess we are about to find out .. Jay please .. he says no .baby I'm not drunk .. I've had a few but I'm not drunk ... what's a few . I know after about six he's done .. he says 4 .. he says baby please I need u right now .. I say yes .. he's inside and it's good . But this has a weird feeling like Jay is being different. . His face has been down the whole time not really kissing me , I say Jay what's wrong .. he don't say anything and most all movement has stopped . He's holding me tight . He says I love you so much baby . I say I love u too Jay ..he moves and it feels good . He starts up again .and he's really moving and I feel it deep.. I want Jay to kiss me .. so I put my hand on his face to turn him toward me .. and his face is wet .. omg.. Jay what's wrong .. he shakes his head and moves hard . He's no longer making love to me .. this has changed. He seem like he just can't finish. . Jay please talk to me ..he says I love u Melanie .. I love you too please talk. What's going on .. he says I'm lost right now baby .. I just don't know if I can handle u working there .. Jay I need to do this on my own please try to understand. . I understand. . But I can't stay with you if u r gonna work a job where guys are grope you all night . He says .. Jay u know it's not like that .. I say .. they can't touch us . And the bouncer throws them out if they do .. it's disrespectful to me as ur man to show off ur body to other men .. Jay I'm not on a pole... he pulls out of me and sits up right on the bed .. he says I just wanted to make love to u one last time .. I know you enough to know your not gonna quit ur job. And when u want except money .. and unwanted to discuss it all on ur own ..