Right Kind Of Wrong

why do I always cave

After I apply my makeup I light a cig and look at myself in the full length mirror . I'm looking so good .. Jay walks in the room . He says no worries u look beyond gorgeous! Wow baby ! I look at him like he's beneath me.. I'm done being ur Sex slave ,I'm done with jedi mind tricks , I'm done being controlled , I'm done , I'm done , I'm done . I'm thinking this in my head .. which seems so clear now .. I walk over to my purse on the floor pick it up and go to get my new lip moisture stick .. I'm applying it . He says u don't have to keep trying I told u , you look amazing .. I look at him in the mirror, it's for me not you . I say .. he walks away ..I take all out of my purse and pack it in a black purse to match me .. I add panties , I'm not sure I can fit clothes in here but if I did he'd know ..so just panties for now . I walk to the frig grab a bottle of coconut water .. it's very hot outside ..I'll need this . I place it in the freezer . I'll need it super cold too .. I just have to perfectly time my escape. . This is so dam retarded !!!!! Really fucking retarded .. I'm mad cuz I've never had anyone other then my mother control me and she has a right .. NO ONE ELSE DOES !!!! Not a man no way . Ain't no fucking man gonna control me . And his jedi Sex mind games ain't gonna work no more ..I'm certain Sex can be just as dam good with another .. Jay says as he walks in the kitchen are u planning to go some where ? I don't even acknowledge him ..Melanie ?? I look up at him and say u gonna let me walk out that front door Jay ? He looks at me and says I really don't want to .. I say exactly I'm just bidding my time til ur dad gets here , he will make u leave me alone .. Jay says so u use my dad against me ? Nope I ask ur dad for his help and he does . I think that man likes me ..I say and I smile big .. he says dad loves u . And so do I. .. I look at him im mad again Jay this isn't love . I say . He looks at me as tho I've just stab him .. he says in a Uber sad crackling voice , you don't love me ? Yes. Jay I do love you very much .. but you can not control me !! I say loudly . He looks at the floor ..awwww hell nawww I'm not falling for ur shit today Jay !!!! He walks over to me and says I'm not playing games with ur ass . You need to figure out what you want. And u need to do it now . He finally looks me straight in the eyes he's mad .mad !
I. Said. I'm bidding. My time. I says to him .. he's says u wanna leave go Melanie ...I walk to my room , I no longer have the desperate feeling to get away . And I'm almost certain he wouldn't chase me down .. he grabs a towel and gets in the shower I'm thinking now .. Jay walks in the room with his towel around his waist . Hot dam why does he have to look that goooooood ? I stare . He looks at me but he has his super mad face on ..it's HOT! !! Omg ! I thought you'd be gone. He says . No . I don't have anywhere to go u canceled my plans .. I say . I look at. Jay , I needed to go prom dress shopping with Tam . He looks at me not so mad now are ya big guy.. ... he says u were gonna buy a dress ? Yes . I say he looks like I've punched him .. he's looking threw the dresser for underwear . He takes out a pair they are navy blue .. I'm watching him like a hawk.. not sure if it's because he looks like a Greek god all muscle soaking wet .. or from fear if what his next move will be .. but I think I need him like really need him .. I wanna make love I've never ever went to him first. But I decide I'll see just how mad is he .. I walk over and take the underwear out of his hand and toss them on the bed .. I pull him to me .. he puts his hands on my hips and leans into kiss me. I kiss him slowly and remove the towel .. he says I love you . I say I love you too. He lifts my arms and gentle pulls my shirt over my head , he unfastened my shorts and they fall to the floor he takes my hand while I step out of them . He leans down and removes my very sexy black thong .. he released the bra and I lean my arms down and let it fall.. we lay in the bed ...... he's doing everything right , seriously on point . He's loving me like he hasn't seen me in mons.. it's pure passion ! We roll all over this bed .. and end up our heads at the foot of the bed .. my head was hanging off and he's licking my neck it's so good . He says I love you so many times.. he pulls me up on the bed where my head wasn't hanging off . He grabs my hips and squeeze them and I just convulsed I'm in pure bliss . It feels so fucking right !! I make sure I'm giving just as much as I receive. . I take him in my mouth and try really hard to make him convulse .. I'm Uber happy when he does .. he is so so hard . It's huge !! He's holding my shoulder tight . His head is leaned back his mouth is wide open .. yes I like this power ! He tries to move me but I'm not gonna move I want to know what it's like .. he does it .. oh wow . It's weird I jump off the bed and run to the bathroom I've washed my mouth out 6 times and brush my teeth twice . Ewwwwwwwwwwww no no no !! It's so thick and sweet wth? I'm so not ever doing that again .. when I crawl back on the bed Jay wrapped me in his arms so tight. He says u did not have to do that ... I wanted to know .. I. Say ... he says know what baby ? Just wanted to know .. now I do .