Right Kind Of Wrong

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I was different too, I wanted to stay pure . I wanted to do things differently then all the other females I knew . I had a clear objective in life before I even met Jay . I wanted to graduate high school and go to culinary school . Which I have done . But those things cost .so I had to get a job , I work at coyote ugly in downtown memphis... I'm not stripping for a living ..just one step away as Jay calls it. We broke up a few times over it .. we have broke up a lot of times .. we don't agree on much .. but somewhere along the way we fell hard for each other . I love him Keith I do .. but I want to make my own way. I own money . Pay for my school. And take care of me . Jay don't understand why this is so important to me. .. and then we have both been with others during break ups .so we lost trust , and communication is at a minimal. . I just don't talk cuz I know he can't see it my way .. we been back together this time for a few months and things have been so good. But we got here and all hell broke loose .. his past is extensive. And they don't wanna stay in the past . He's trying to be a good boy .. but well he's a guy . Keith says Melanie any guy can be loyal .that's all in how much he loves you. And wants to keep you . Same for ladies . You two seem very much in love . And these things take time , men and woman are so polar opposites that we sometimes can't see it from the others point of view . And that comes from being raised differently too . It's hard trying to get to a point where u just except that person for who they are and not trying to morph them into what ur ideals are .. u have to love them the way they are . But that's not saying except all behavior. Not cheating ,lying , cruelty, violence, or disrespect. . I just mean that our ways of doing things or dealing with things will always be different. We are really different. And I've learned in my 10 yrs. Of marriage my wife is smarter then me and always right . I've excepted . And we are better together for it .. he laughs . I laugh. Wow Keith Ur a very smart man can't Jay hang out with you more often and you teach him ur ways .. I laugh.. he says wisdom comes with age ..most of the time and we'll I'm old . Keith says .. Keith I really wanna work this all out but I have one more issue .. he looks at me .. well see there is this trip to Italy in a few mons . It's for school. I'll be taking a culinary class there .. I'd have to live there for 8 weeks. I wanna go so bad. It will boost my career . But I know Jay will never agree to it. He will leave me . Keith says Melanie thats huge !! You should go . I mean it. U have to go. It's a once in a life time opportunity! And if Jason really loves you he'll be here waiting for you when u get back. Love don't stop or change. No matter the distance. No matter the time . Melanie u just need to sit down and talk to Jason . I shake my head yes . But I'm gonna wait till we get back home because I don't wanna ruin our vacation. .well anymore then those thirsty hoes have already . Keith laughs . He says ur way to pretty to talk like that. Don't ever let any other person make u jealous. Your perfectly you. Every single person has something that makes them unique. And I think Jason knows what he has. I've seen him with other girls , he has never had that look in his eye ,the one he has when he's with you. I know the look . I've seen real love . And Jason loves u. .. he's young and stupid and hasn't quiet worked it out for him self yet . But he will. And you love him too. I see it in yall it's definitely there. Just give it some time and patience.