Right Kind Of Wrong

never ask for this

Three days later .... I wake up to my mom yelling at me , get up this house is a fucking mess !! She pissed ! And right now I could careless she'd do me a favor to beat my ass !! I haven't seen Jay in three days ,sense he walked out my room and out of my life .. I've cried so much my eyes swelled shut . Rick took me to the doc who explained why this happens. . They gave me drops .. I'm in the kitchen ear buds in cleaning her house . Rick walks in so I pull the bud out. He says hey Melanie ,he's fine . I'd asked if he was OK last night .. he's at his grandpa house .. thanks Rick, I say he says hey I sure do miss ur cooking . And u should eat too.. wow I haven't even thought of food .. that's not like me . I look in the frig.. and feel nauseous! No I'll stick to the sb Frappuccino. I've gotten most of this house clean when Jay walked in the door . My heart leaped .. he walked past me went straight to his room he was in there for about an hour .. I was unable to think straight. .. I wanted to talk to him so bad .. but he walked out on me .. when he came out his room he had several bags and took them to his car .. HES MOVING OUT .. I think I just fell a part .again . He comes back in the house and go's to his room again. Then to the bathroom , I hear the shower .. what? 29 mins..later he's was completely dressed and had his keys in his hand. He walked in the kitchen where I was wiping down the dining room table .. i take out the ear bud and listen .. hey ,my dad says you've been really sick over this , and not eating . Melanie I'm sry . I am but I need to do me for a while , and no I'm not asking you to wait. I need you to see I have to do this . I'm so sry . He walks toward me and I coil. I can't believe the things he's saying to me .. he reaches out and catches me as I'm trying to go around the other side from the table .. he pulls me into his arms and hugs me so tight. Saying Melanie I love you .. I start sobbing . Please baby girl take care of ur self ... he kisses my head and walked out the door gone .. I fall to the floor and sob so uncontrollable. . I'm shaking so bad it scares me .. I'm done .. Rick lifts me off the floor and holds me in his arms . A few mins later Rick tells me .. mel he's just in a different place right now. I know this will all work out. U have to just be strong . U can't let this destroy you. I'm sobbing in ricks arms he's talking but I can't .. I just can't right now. I'm sick .. no I think I'm really about to puke .. I run to the bathroom. . And puke !! When I come out Rick is on the phone .. he's not happy with the person on the other end . I have to finish cleaning this house .. 4 days later .I've finally gotten myself to a point where I can function I went to school a few days this week .and I've held it together for the most part till I go to bed alone ... hasn't been one night that I haven't cried myself to sleep . And Jay hasn't come back .. he's been gone 7 full nights . A week .. the first week. It will get better is my new mantra. .. the next week was not easier ... but this is the last week of School so everyone is happy !! Planning schools out party's .. and I've always had the best party's in this town so of course they ask mel. Are we gonna throw down . I've had it say no 1000 times this week . Zare ask me to keep the boys this weekend if I wasn't busy .. and a weekend at there house sounds great .. so I've packed my clothes for the weekend . And did all the chores at home ...