Right Kind Of Wrong

don't trust anyone

After Tammie and I finished our sandwich we went to my room where she proceeded to tell me Jay had been asking her about me. What about me. She said well he wanted to know how bad this thing with ur mom really is. And why she hates u. I lol. Oh he finally figured that one out did he .. Melanie he likes you. What I'm pose to drop everything and bow down to him now. Fuck him!!! Tammie has her I'm terrified face on. What is wrong with u??? !!!! I'm furious .I seriously wanna hurt someone. Tammie decides to let it go. She crawls in the bed and is off to sleep. I can't go back to sleep. I feel my adrenaline pumping. I've had guys mess with my friends. They all do. Guys are the worst !! Ugh !!! I decide I need to do something with this amount of anger. So I start cleaning out my closet.. two hours later that closet is clean organized and I have two bags of clothes to give Tam to take to her sisters house. I'm a Lil more calm now. .. I need a drink. I walk out my bedroom door ,I have my ear buds in so I can't hear anything around me. It's 4:34am and Jay is coming out the bathroom. . I look up and I see him he's saying something. So I pull the bud out my ear and say huh. He looks at me and says never mind Melanie. And he's mad ,his voice was the sleep voice that turns ladies into hormonal basket cases , his eyes were slightly swollen from sleep and his face said ur not even worth losing sleep over. As he shut his door I put the bud back in my ear and mumbled .. don't use ur he devil mean voice on me dammit. U gonna get so much more then u barging for hottie.. I laugh. Cuz well it was funny. I go get a drink and go back to my room. The next day I wake up its 12 noon and there is a note on my vanity mirror : Melanie, I had to go to my sisters house today to watch the Bratz ... I'll see ya tonight. Make nice choices today. Lol. Love tam.. she thinks she's funny. Bite me Tam !!! I'm in the dame horrible mood . I go to the bathroom and discover why I hate the whole world .. mother nature is a bitch that requires pads !!! Ughhhhhhh. Shoot me. I run back to my room and grab a pad and clothes snatched a towel out the closet and jump in the shower. 40 mins. Later I'm in my room ,I finish dressing . This day is not gonna be fun. When I'm done I go to the kitchen. I need hot tea with a ton of lemon juice. I put the pot on the stove and grab the tea bags when I turn back to the stove Jay is walking past me he puts his hand on my back as he walks past me to the frig . I freeze ! He don't notice. He's been awake for a while .. he's had a shower too. And his hair is wet. He smells so dam good. Like the hair on my arm stood straight up ... wow. This can't be normal. I go back to making tea. 10 mins later I'm sitting on my couch drinking hot lemon tea. So good. Jay walks in the living room a lil more fully dressed now. Hoodie on beanie on .. looking like ,my insides just melted .. I'm blaming it on the tea. ... he says he has to leave for a while. He will see me tonight. He didn't even look at me. Just said that and walked out the door. . Ok... I get up and open the curtains and Start picking up around the house. An hour or so later. The house is clean. Andrea Layla mom and my sisters best friend has come over. We start talking. I need advice. She 23 yrs old maybe she can help me. .. Andrea I need some advice. She says OK .. well u know I somewhat have a small crush on Jason. .. she snickers. Like right. Well in the past few weeks we have been getting a Lil chummy with each other. Andrea is all ears and is up right in her chair looking like she just saw a alien. We have spooned twice ,hugged 6 times ,and kissed quite a few times now. .. omg!! She says. Yeah it gets worse. Please tell me that Jason is not the new platinum V card holder. .. I bust out laughing. I say that phrase so much everyone knows it by heart. ... NO !!!! I still own that .. oh thank god. She says. .. Andrea stick with me. I yell .. look I may have messed up . She listening to me closely now .. Andrea I like this boy /guy .. a lot. He makes me sweat ! My heart pounds when he's within a 10 mile radius of me. I can't breath. And his kiss is transcending. Gives me frito toe syndrome! !! And my head go's numb. Wait ... she says as she's laughing so hard she snorting and holding her chest. Tears pouring down her face. Wait. ..what the hell is frito toe syndrome? ??? You know when ur toes curl so hard u get those toe cramps. !! Listen listen. She's not hearing me no more she's screeching about needing to pee...