Right Kind Of Wrong

I wanna be a Lil kid again

Tammie and I RUN to the merry go round !! We run around it to make it go really fast and jump on we lay down and it's spinning super fast. I'm laying there feeling my heart pound and watching the sky spin the clouds look so puffy and soft . I feel so free , I'm thinking back to when Tam and I use to do this after a bad day with my mom. We would come here and I'd scream and play . Being a kid ,cuz I wasn't aloud to do those things at home .. we were and still are soldiers at home. Like a Lil robot .. as it slows down I look over at Tam. And she says wow we haven't done this in like so long. . I shake my head yes. I remember the day we played out here for like hours and then we went over to the ball field over there and we laid down on the fresh laid grass and we talked for hours about going to that high school and we would rule the school .and we would have rad boyfriends and fast cars and be in the Cheer squad .. she says. I roll over on my tummy and look at my friend . She says come on . I grab my bag and we walk over to the ball field . We lay down on our tummies and face each other . We talk for like two hours. . It's starting to get dark.. we have talked ,cried ,laughed !! .when we get up I look at Tammie and burst into tears I grab my very best friend in the biggest hug ever . I hold this girl so tight I'm certain she can't breath .. I tell her .Tammie I love you girl ,u mean the whole world to me ,I mean everything! And I know without a doubt I COULD NOT get threw this life without you. I'm sobbing! ! She hasn't let me go. We stand and hug for the longest time. She says Melanie u are my entire world. I love you too . And no matter how bad this world beats us up we will always come back here to this place and play like kids and forget it all even if it's just for a few hours ..even when we are 60 yrs old. We laugh .. OK but by then u may have to run to get that merry go round to start. It was hard me just now. . I'm getting old Tam .. and I'm so tired .. she laughs and says if it makes u happy doll I'll do it. .. we walk toward my purse and other bags .. she says it's getting darker. We need to get . We live in a not so safe town so we girls don't need to be out walking .. even tho we have in the past many times... as we are walking toward my house she stops me hugs me again and says your gonna be just fine ,I've been telling u for 10 years now. We are gonna get threw thus together we are gonna win .. oh congrats u did win !! I tell her u were amazing up there ! And I look her straight in the eyes and tell her Thank you Tammie for spending the day with me . And playing on the play ground .. she says we will neve ever be to old to play on that play ground. And we will do it again .. we hug before we go in the house ..my house . It's full of my entire family ,Rick and Jay. .. he looks so mad ..murderous! ! We are standing in the kitchen ,my sister says omg yall look just like u did when u were 9 yrs old coming home all dirty and grass stains .. hair all messy .. awww. It takes me back. I look at Tammie and we laugh !! My sister raises her eye brow?? Tammie says we had a blast !! I say yes we did . And walk threw the crowd to my room jay follows me .. he shuts the door behind us and locks it .. I put down my bags and Start digging threw my closet for bed clothes .. I need a shower and food . Jay says Melanie u wanna tell me what I did this time ? I say how's the whore these days did she have a good birthday ?? He looks at me and says I don't know yet I'll tell ya tomorrow when she comments back . Haahahhabaa. Omg ! This boy is trying to get HURT.. ... GET OUT !! I scream ... NO ! Yes I mean it jay get out of my room ! No . We need to talk ..and maybe we could do it in a tone the whole town can't hear .. FUCK YOU !! When the FUCK are u gonna get that u don't control me or my fucking tone... I yell at him .. Melanie what are really mad about? He says in his calm voice . The one that usually stops me in my tracks ... are you stupid? I ask.... idk.. he says .. ok let me break it down for u. I say while I'm picking up my clothes . I'm about to go take my shower no matter what he says .. jay u called her beautiful. . And u sent the bitch a fucking wink face.. I open the door and step out the door he's walking toward me .. he says Melanie I call everyone beautiful! ! I turn in the hall way where by The way the whole family from the dining room table can now see us ... and I say.. jay if u call her beautiful one more time Ur gonna need dentures, a face plate , AND A FUCKIN WOODEN LEG !!!!! when I turn around I can see Rick laughing so hard ...like super hard. .the whole family is laughing but trying to hide the faces.. I go straight into the bathroom