Right Kind Of Wrong

exactly what I expected

When Jay walks out the bathroom in to our room he's wearing the towel around his waist and I'm panting .. ugh why does he have to be so freaking gorgeous! ! He's just so dam sexy. I'm so not able to do this. I don't wanna leave him. I've paid for this trip . I've worked hard . I'm going . Jay puts his under wear on and walks over to the bed . He pulls me to my feet and takes off my shirt ,he says takes these off , he's referring to my ear rings . I take them off and put them in his hands. He puts them on the vanity , he walks over to me and wraps his arms around me. He says I love you baby. I say I love you too. He says lay down on the bed on ur belly . I do it . Jay crawls up on the bed and then on me. He's sitting on the back of my thighs and he begins to massage my back. . Oh wow. Yes! So good . I'm feeling a lot better .. he moves to my shoulders and his big hands work there magic . Mmmmm. So good . Like wow. This is relaxed . He moves down my back slowly needing as he goes.. he's at the top of my pants he leans over to my ear and says I should have taken these off too....I shake my head yes.. slowly I'm in a Trans . He flips me over and unbuttoned my jeans ain't no way he can get these tight things off with out my help . I reach for them and he puts my hands back out of his way .. he pulls them off with very Lil trouble .. I'm impressed. .. he flips me back over on my belly and starts his process over shoulders back now thighs ... down to my calfs .. it's so good. I'm beyond relaxed . Can't move .. Jay slips two fingers inside me and I am lost . Hes sitting be side me on his knees and working his fingers . I begin breathing so hard . He leans down to my ear and says I want you .... I shake my head yes .. the light is still on ..we haven't done much with the lights on .. we have . But OK .... so he rolls me over on my back and begins kissing my belly . He's got his hand on the dip . And he presses down twice quickly. I think I blacked out for a sec that was pleasure on new levels ..like I was not expecting that and it felt soooo good he immediately pushed his fingers inside me and I convulsed so hard . It was like where am I. ..who am I .. .. just wow .. he is making love to me now , but well he's packing some serious punch here . And it's awesome! It's great . It's over... dam that was quick.. he rolls over onto the bed and is coming back down to earth. . When he is all better and calm he rolls over to face me and he pulls me to face him .. we lay face to face for a few minutes and Jay says baby tell me ... I look at him confused. He says all night you've wanted to tell me something I can see it in ur eyes .. I close my eyes .. I'm gonna cry. He's rubbing my side , he says tell me baby . I look at him and say ..I'm going to Italy . He looks at me confused .. my school and the restaurant have this program where I can graduate early and I'll make more money and it's paid for already , but I'll be in Italy for 8 weeks ..... I'm not really explaining this very well ,but I'm scared ..Jay looks like I just slapped his face . He says your gonna go live in Italy for 8 weeks ? Yes . I say quietly. . He says I don't have a say in this decision? Jay it's for my career . I have to do this .. I whisper well cause I can't find my voice .. Jay closes his eyes and lays back on the bed . He's not happy . Jay say something he rolls back on his side and starts kissing my neck and holding my side tight. .. he whispers I love you. I don't want you to go , but I don't want you to wake up 10 yrs.from now and hate me either. So I'm gonna watch you go . I'll miss you and I'll love forever . I start feeling very emotional. But I'm not gonna cry. I need to have this conversation. I need to remember this moment forever.. Jay are you leaving me? I Ask .. He Says No UR Leaving Me . Jay I'm not leaving you. ,I am leaving town for a few weeks. That's all . I want us to be together till I leave and when I get back I want us to resume our relationship. . Jay hugs me to him tight .. he says we'll see . I feel the tears so close now . Jay are you serious? I ask . Are you gonna leave me over this .. ? Jay says baby I'm not sure how all this will pan out . I just know that 8 weeks is a long time . And I'm not sure we will be OK . I sit up quick ,Jay are you trying to guilt trip me here . I ask .. no baby I'm not. I want you to go . You have to go .I get it ... I'm just not sure where I'll be .. you know when u get back .. he says .