Right Kind Of Wrong

my party at home .

Friday night after we left grandpa's house Jay is driving and says we can pull off the road right up here .. he's laughing .. I say please take me home and make love to me .. he says I'm going to baby .. i lay my head on his shoulder and think about his family being so nice to me ..wow that went straight to my heart. I've never . But one day I'm gonna have a family of my own and that's how I want it to be .. when we get home I take my stuff to my room and Jay walks in behind me he says Melanie, I turn around and he's holding my roses . He says u want these in here or in the living room .. I smile so big I tell him I want them in the living room so everyone can see them tomorrow. He says OK .he leaves the room . I take my shoes off and start to take my clothes off .but jay says i want to do that .. a few minutes later we are in the bed .. naked oh so very very naked .. he starts doing the s shapes on my belly while kissing my chest. He's being so sweet and loving .. he's said I love you 7 times today . And is still saying it in bed now .. I really do love him with all my heart and soul . I have so much I need to say to him .. but he's saying so much to me right now. .. it can wait till later .. Jay says baby I need you so much .and his hand is there .. and my head is way back in the pillow . I'm panting and squeezing him. His breathing has changed too... he's so ready . And I pull him over on me .. he's making love to me slowly agonizingly slow and rubbing me and kissing me .. it's all to much I feel emotional again .. this day has been so awesome !! But right now this very moment I'm feeling impatient and I need him to really move .. I need that heavy hitter right now so I push him up and he says what's wrong baby . I say nothing at all .just please move faster .. he says what ? .... I say Jay please .. he picks up the pace a lot and is hitting just the right spot every time !! It's bliss.. it's what I need ..he says baby is this what u need ..? Yes ! I almost scream .. he smiles hard and says anything you want baby .. not long and we are laying there spent and trying to calm down ... I turn to Jay and tell him thank you for today it was so special to me I've never had that .. he says now u do !! We lay there and fall a sleep. . The next morning I wake up to Jay kissing my face hey baby wake up I have to leave for a Lil while ,tell me bye he says .. I open my eyes and look at this boy like his hair is on fire !! Wait what ? Jay says what's wrong ? Ur leaving ? Yes baby .why ? I ask I have to go out for a while .. Jay I needed ur help today . I tell him .. he says I got u some help .. it's all done. U sleep in baby . What are u talking about? He says baby this house is spotless and everything is set up outside no worries .. I'll be back later .. I love you so much happy birthday baby .. I say I love you too and he kisses me and is gone .. it 11 am .. oh shit I gotta get up now .. when I walk out my room my mom says happy birthday . I say thank you .. as I'm walking in the kitchen there are streamers and balloons! ! And a cake .. wait what ? I'm still dreaming .. this can't be real .. I've never had this before ..ever .. Tammie says that man loves you !! And points to Rick who is outside the door putting up lights !! These colored bulbs every where .. wow . Awwww .. Rick has gone all out . I love it so much I'm in tears again .. this has got to be a dream.. Tammie hands me a cup of coffee , it's my new sb cup and my sb coffee ..oh wow ! Tam says I washed ur cup and made ur coffee ... I hug her so tight I know she can't breath we cry ... she says it's all done all u have to do is turn ur self in to the perfect princess for tonight . And I can't wait !!!! She says I say me too .. she says come with me .. we walk outside and she shows me that mark is here and setting up the karaoke machine. I hug mark so hard. Thank you. !!! I tell mark. He says anything for u beautiful. . Awwww I'm such a lucky girl today !!! My phone buzzed and I know I have to keep up with it today .. it's Jay .. hey beautiful, I miss you so much already. . I need to ask u something . Me: I miss you too baby . I love you . Jay : last night when we were on our way home u ask me to make love to you .. then we got going u push me away and said move .. baby what happen ? Please tell me if I'm doing something wrong ...