Right Kind Of Wrong

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I'm sweating. We know dam well Mel don't sweat!! But I think Layla is on Crack. I'm serious I've never in my life seen a child with this much energy. She runs ,screams ,kicks ,then throws a freaking hissy fit when u try to stop her. I'm think right at this moment ..was that outfit worth this. ... idk. If the outfit was ..but those kisses. Definitely most definitely! ! I'm smiling like a goon when Jay looks at me with his question face. I think I zoned out ... oh shit. Where is tornado Layla ? I find her standing on the back of the toilet. Reaching for a pic on the wall. Omg!! I snatched her down. Thinking seriously it might be time to tye this child to a chair. As I walk in the living with Layla in my arms. I ask as serious as I can .. Jay do u have any duct tape ???? He laughs at me . Three more hours has passed I'm exhausted but Layla will be gone in about 20 mins. If I can just hold it together till then. Tammie has not come back or called. Why ? After the tornado left the house looked as if there really had been a tornado. And I'm not feeling so up to cleaning yet again. Jay has gone to his room for the last hour. So I lock up the house and head to my room. Which is covered on toys. Layla had been playing with sissy toys . I pick them all up and put them in the basket I keep in my room for sissy. I miss my sissy boo .. I call my sister to see how my boo baby is doing. Dee says sissy has a slight cold. But she's fine. Dee ask how are things at home with out parents. I laugh. It's all good. She's like hmm I bet. Don't go there. I turn on the radio and lay down on my bed. More exhausted then I guess I knew. I was out. I wake up look at the clock it's like 2 am .. where did the time go. I sit up feeling so very groggy .. I stumble to the door and open it. I hear people talking . Wait what .are this hour ? No no. No. I walk down the hall toward the sound in my living room Jay is sitting on the couch talking to Tam ... ummm OK .I look at Tam ,my BFF !! I don't even acknowledge him. The trader bastard. She says it's about time sleepy girl. I must have this drop dead now look on my face . I don't respond. I go straight to the kitchen and pour myself a glass of Pepsi . Walk to my room and grab my cigs. Walk back to the dining room table plop down in the chair and light one up. I'm mad. I'm really mad. Tam and Jay come sit at the table with me. Jay say that baby wore ur ass out didn't she. He laughs. I look at him finally ,lick my lips a few times trying to find away not to have this moment. I can feel it welling up. It's about to blow !!! That child had no effect on me . I have bigger issues !!! I said this with artic ice .. he looks at me like wth. Is wrong with u. Tam says sry Jason ..sometimes Melanie wakes up with murdous tendosies .. she laughs she thinks this is funny. I have yet to Crack the least of a smile. I want to throat punch them both. Jay leans in close to me and whispers ..it's not what u think.... good night. U have no fucking idea what I think ever so don't presume too !!! He never even looked back. Tammies eyes are wide. Melanie did u think something was going on? And I look at the floor. Mel. Come on u know better right. I look are her in that we have a past u know what I'm thinking right now. Melanie!! I wouldn't do that. Says Tam. I know I say. But was he ?? NO !! He was asking about u. She says . Melanie I think he really likes u. . Ppsshhh! ! No he wants ass. They all do!!! I stand and walk to the frig. I'm hungry. I didn't even make dinner. I guess Mr . Sneaky. Managed .. ugh I'm feeling so pissed off. I make a sandwich for me and Tam. Grab the chips and sit back in my spot at the table. Tammie say. Hey what's really going in with u.