Right Kind Of Wrong

graduation

As I'm standing in line to receive my diploma, I look out at all the people here for me .. there is like 49 people no lie . It's crazy ! My whole family all my friends that don't graduate till next yr. And all of Jays family even grandpa ! Wow I feel loved today . As I walk across that stage I look down at Jay he's smiling so big. He looks so happy. They all stand and clap !!!! I walk off the stage and go back to my seat and tears fall. Tammie is next and I jump off my chair and cheer the loudest !!! I'm so proud of that girl ! Later after all is said and done I walk out to my family Tammie with me . Everyone is saying congratulations! ! And I feel a ton of weight fall from my shoulders . I feel free for the first time in like for ever .. Jay walks up to me and hugs me tight he says I'm so proud of u baby . I love you . I say thank you I love you too. Sam Is next . He knows he will make me cry so he's holding tissue in his hand . He shows it to me and we laugh but I feel the cry coming ... I take the tissue .he says I'm proud of you . Always! Your my girl . You gonna be OK Mel . I love ya girl . I lose my shit. Sam has never said he loved me . Never. I'm crying so hard when he pulls me in his arms he's holding me so tight. I say I love you too sam. Ur the best . When he release me I'm full on sobbing. Tammie rakes me in her arms and hold me tight. She says we did it !! I look at her tears rolling down my face , I Tammie I'm so proud of u you have over come too many obstacles in this life already and I know we are gonna make this life our bitch.. she laughs with tears rolling down her face too .. we are so emotional, but it's over high school is over . And we now have to adult ... I hug every one here I think but grandpa gets my heart too he pulls me into a huge hug . He says you look so beautiful tonight and I'm so proud of u . I cry . He says go fix ur face baby girl we are going to eat some celebration dinner . I'm hungry he says . I laugh .yes sir . I run to the bathroom and pee and sob on the toilet ..I'm such a sap ... we arrive at outback steak house and we have a private room set up for 60 people . Yeah.. and I know grandpa did this he has more money then oprah.. as we walk in I feel someone poke me . I turn around its molly !!! She hugs me and says congrats, I didn't see u after . She's holding her beautiful daughter I have to hold this Lil cutie . I take her daughter and kiss her tiny face . I tell molly I'm so proud of u . You did it ! With this Lil perfect right here . She smiles . Yall come sit with us please she finally agreed. There is like 7 of them . Molly sits close to us . We all talk for a while ..when molly has to stand with her daughter who is getting fussy .. awwww I have to take her I just love babies !!!! I'm bouncing her around when Jay looks up at me and smiles I shake my head at him no ! Like don't get any ideas . Nope . Jay reaches for the baby and I hand her to him .. he's holding mollys daughter like at pro .. she is smiling up at Jay . He looks smokin hot holding a baby . Wow . No no no .. I can't . We get our food and I'm talking to grandpa .. he says here . He hands me an envelope. He says spend it wisely and take good of my grand son .. I freak .. I cry .he says ur a Cryer .. I say yes I am .. he says just means u have a huge heart . And ur a very good person . Don't let this mean world take that away .I agree I hug him tight .. Jay still has the baby. It's too hot... I love him .. when molly took her daughter Jay said shes perfect .. molly laughed . Molly says you can come to my house about 3 am ... see if u love her then.. don't get me wrong I love her ...molly says .. we laugh. . They leave and others are starting to leave too.