Right Kind Of Wrong

minds games to another level

He says please baby keep ur hands on the bed .. in the voice that says I can not handle u touching me right now .. he sounds so sad .. and sexy very sexy .. I want so badly to hold him. He puts his hand right back in the dip and starts over . I'm panting and he hasn't really done anything. . I'm so confused .. I feel figity like I wanna move .. I wanna say stop ur driving me insane , I wanna say just touch me already please .. but I lay there waiting . He's always taken me to these dark places that make me question my self ,my thoughts , my sanity, my beliefs , me . He pushes in the dip ,it was super unexpected sense I'm all in my head right now. ... I swoon .. it's the best sensation ever he does it again and my hands automatic move toward him .. he says don't ! Kinda forceful. . It takes me by surprise. . I put my hands down slowly . He pushes again and I'm starting to feel that need like it's becoming very intense ..I need him to move on to he next stage .. I know where he will go. . And it will feel so dam good .. but I know I'll need to touch him then .. I always hold him so tight when he does that .. what's gonna happen if he does that .. now I'm thinking too hard again.. he kisses me and says I love you so much baby ... I say I love you too, why won't you let me touch you ? He says just don't . I'm starting to feel sad .. like emotional. . Jay moves his hand down and is between my thighs and I know he's gonna do this. This is the best feeling in the entire world .and I'll really need to hold on to him ..I'm sorta saying please in my head .. I'm not even sure what I'm begging for , am I begging for him to go inside me or ,let me touch him , or help . I'm not sure but the word please is going over and over in my head right now .. he is rubbing just inside but not going in ... I need him to go in .. now .. I move my hips up to meet his hand .. he knows I need this .. the need keeps getting stronger .. my belly is so tight .. I have this very very strong need I tilt my head back and he kisses my neck I'm so lost in my need I reach for him and he pushes deep inside me .. I lose all control , he say put ur hands on the bed ,in a mean sorta voice that says I mean what I'm saying to you ..I'm wanna punch him. But there is no way I'm giving up this feeling ,I'm place my hands back on the bed and he is giving it all he has the sensation coursing threw my body right now can not be matched ..it's beyond anything I can compare it to... I'm gripping the sheet so tight and he's breathing a Lil harder I know this is effecting him .. but I feel very emotional all the sudden like I really need to cry . I need to touch him . I say Jay please I need to touch you please and I hear the emotion in my voice ... he says I know baby I know ,but please don't .. I'm so confused .I'm sad I'm hurt I can't understand what's going on .. why is he doing this .. he has found the O button and is pressing it so softly and it's driving me mad .. he adds a little more pressure with each touch .. and I'm almost certain I'm gonna have this moment very soon. ... he stops doing it ..he has moved away from said button and that moment is lost ..I wanna seriously cry or hit him I haven't decided yet . My body is wound up so tight it almost hurts . And my emotions are scattered All over the place ..I'm sad but I'm in love but I'm getting very frustrated. . I need to release something like now .. he should have let me have that moment I'd be so much more calm I'd have been like drugged .. I imagine that's what it must feel like to be drugged .. because after that moment I'm just so dam relaxed and calm and content .. it's like instant calm .. he's back at the button and I'm building .... it's so much stronger this time it builds fast and I'm panting hard. I reach up to grab him but he leans back and says don't I mean it baby don't .. I grab his hand and move him I go to roll over I'm hurting and I don't understand. .I can't do this anymore . Between the pain in my heart and the pleasure it's too much. My head is spinning and I'm feel sick . Just stop I say .. stop I'm crying so hard . I mean tears rolling down my face ..he caught me by my hip when I went to roll over so I'm stuck on my back him right on my side .. I put my hands over my face and I'm lost in every single emotion I have . All of them at once my body is shaking .I'm scared I've never had this happen . I feel so out of control. How does he make me feel every thing so much .. it's crazy! !! He's holding me tight while I'm sobbing . He says Melanie ,you tell me all the time when we are fighting .. don't touch me . I HATE WHEN U SAY THAT TO ME .... it hurts for the one you love so fucking much to say don't touch me .. I'm dying inside when u deny me the right to touch you .. ur mine I need to be able to touch u to comfort u and show u how much I love you no matter what fight we are having . No matter how mad we are touch will make it better . Touching u is my life .. I couldn't imagine going one day with out touching u ,holding u , kissing u . . I'm sry but ..did u feel it ? How bad did u wanna touch me tonight Melanie . Enough that ur crying . Enough that u stop me .. how bad was the sensation. . The pain of being told don't .. don't Touch me .. .