Right Kind Of Wrong

best worst day of my life so far ...

Me: jay I've been so dam emotional lately and I knew if we continued at ur pace I'd lose it. And you were being so loving which I love ! But to keep from crying ..I just knew we had to pick up the pace .. I'm so sry . Jay: why would u cry ? Seriously I don't know . And that worries me . Is there something wrong ? I know u needed to go talk to zare the other day I just figured it was woman questions. . Please try to explain. . Me : jay I get emotional over silly things and sometimes it overwhelmed me .. it's not a problem to solve I promise . It's just me .. that's why I didn't wanna cry in bed last night. Because I can't explain it .. it's just so weird to be this in love .. and it makes me cry .. I'm sry I'm not really explaining this right ..jay: yes it is totally weird to be this in love. Lol . But I'm here for ever if ull let me .. me : I love you jay ,I'm not mad or anything. I'm just batshit crazy !! U know this. I think .. lol and yes I had some woman issues to talk over with zare , she was very help full. . I love you jay : I'm glad u got the answers u needed . I just wish u could talk to me about it all. I'm waiting patiently for that day . I'll be home soon. I love you more ..me: please come home and spend my birthday with me . That will be the best part! !! Ily ... jay : I'll be there real soon my love .. .. Tammie says let's get ready !!! We decide to get in the tub together first to shave .. then shower .. an hour and a half later we are getting dressed we still got make up and hair to do. I'm so excited !! When Tam and I have our make up on we agree we look hot ! I put my purple top on and fluf my hair one last time .. we are ready to go . We walk out the room at 6:00 pm there is like 20 people here already .. and jay just walked in the house . He walks up to me kisses me and say NO ! To this shirt or lack there of.. I giggle .. he's smiling .. but I think he's serious too. We go to the kitchen with our friends and start mixing up drinks yum.. jay looks at me and say this should be fun ... I giggle again and tell him hit me. He laughs and fills it up . After about three drinks and two more hours I'm now singing karaoke Selena Gomez good for you .. we are having to much fun.. we have 27 girls singing it's crazy on 4 mics .. the guys think we are crazy. We put down the mics and get on the dance space shake that money maker. Rick tells us to all come up on the porch .. and Jay pulls me threw the crowd to the front where my cake is all lit up . They all sing happy birthday .. all 70 people in the back yard .. I make a wish and blow out the candles .. I see mark coming out the house with this basket .huge basket. . It's wrapped in hot pink plastic with a huge bow , I can sorta see threw the plastic. . I see something vs. I'm not sure who this is from .. I get the bow undone ..and I pull the wrap off .. it's and BASKET FULL OF VS PRODUCTS! !! It has perfume lotion hair products make up clothes a purse !! Wth? This is the best !! I look up at zare and she says what is it doll.. I say who is this from ? Zare points at Jay . I look at him and he looks so shy ..I grab him and hug him so tight. Omg. Thank you baby . Every girl here is owwww.and ahhhhhhh. They say dam boyfriend goals .we all laugh and Jay feels really good about his gifts .. I love it . I beg zare and mark to please put the basket in my room ...Rick comes to me with a bag and says this is from ur mom and I .. which prolly means Rick .. I open it and it's a really nice phone case it bright pink with a M on the back in diamond studs it's perfect ! I hug Rick and say thank you . Mom is at work ... we all go back to the party. Well most did I stand on the porch next to Jay and he's taking the phone case a part to put on my phone. When I see her walk threw the gate with like 4 others I think I must be too drunk ! Shana ! Jays ex .. wtf? Is she doing here at my party ? I look at Jay who hasn't even noticed .. I nudge him and ask the fuck. ? He looks up and says idk.. he walks over to her ,so did I . Jay looks like he's in pain as he say what? She says I wanted to see you . Jay says not good Shana not good. You can't just come here . I say what the hell are you doing here at my party ? She looks at me and says this is Jays house to right ? He's my friend I just wanted to see him .. he's not answering my calls or text so I just wanted see if he was OK but she's looking at Jay the whole time . Jay says Shana I told u three weeks ago I was back with my girl friend. She says I know but u have a girl friend one day and not the next so I didn't know .. he says I'm with Melanie now u need to go . I don't want you to ruin her birthday party . She looks at me and says oh its ur birthday. Happy birthday! I've about lost my shit ! I'm thinking . I say you need to understand that Jay is mine now and your not welcome at this house ever again and don't CALL or TEXT HIM EVER AGAIN .. she giggles . She says he's mine every time u decide ur mad at him you know like 4 weeks ago when he stayed the night with me. . I look at Jay and he's mad . Every single person at this party is now crowded around just loving the drama .. I ask Jay did u stay the night with her ? She says yes he did and it was hot !! I ask did u sleep with her ? Jay has yet to say a word. She says well duh. And before I even knew what happen I had punched this bitch in the eye !! Hard too . My hand was throbbing and she was on the ground. I look at Jay and tell him get ur whore and both of u leave now ... I walk in the house, all my friends walk in with me and Tammie says omg!!- . It's never a party with out some drama .. I look at her I'm livid and in pain .. Rick walks in and gets me some ice immediately. . I'm holding the ice on my hand ,I ask Tammie to get me another drink and my cigs out my pocket ... she does . I'm so pissed off !!!! How dare she ..and did Jay lie to me ? I look up and see Jay walking threw the door .. he says are you OK ? He's looking at my hand wrapped in ice .. all my friends walk back outside . It's just Jay and I. .. he sits down in front of me I look up at him and ask .. Jay did u sleep with her before we got back together ? He looks like he'd rather jump out of of a plane without a parchute then have to answer this question. He leans forward and rubs my knee ,he says baby she was just trying to ruin ur night . Please can we talk about this tomorrow. I look answer him with more malice then I could ever imagine me having ...answered say Jay don't lie to me. Answer me ....