Later that evening sitting on my couch with the kids I watch , I'm doing home work ,and Jay calls. He's not gonna be home till 9pm. OK . The kids mom should be here soon it's like 5 pm now. I've already made dinner . And the house is clean. Just gotta fold the towels .. i always start out the year doing very well then some how last year I got a Lil off course .. but I know thus year and next year I have to give it 100% I'm already applying for culinary schools . And have spoke with a chef I can work with over this next summer ... I think I have all my ducks in a nice neat row. . But I'm sorta worried about me and Jay. I feel like I'm walking on glass with him ... we are together , but one false move and he might run again. That's not a fun relationship. . I've never ever been one to kiss ass or stress over any guy ! But it's way different with Jay .I love Jay ! And it's just not fair when u feel like your the one who loves the other more then they love you... I never saw myself this way .. am I this dam needy ? Wow . I never really had love before and now that I do I'm terrified to lose it .. that's a desperate feeling .and not one I like to admit to myself .. makes for very low self-esteem. . Kids mom picks them up and I decide to go get my shower and put on some music to dance along to while I'm washing my hair .. I think it's that thing of I'm thinking to hard and I wanna drown out the sound in my head .. when I get out the shower Tam is here . She's telling me about this guy she met . Says he's real nice and really fine ! And she wants to bring him over to meet me soon. As I'm drying off and getting dressed I look at the clock it's 7:27 pm .. why is Jay getting home late .. ? Idk. But I've gotta fold the towels and make fresh tea.. so I get busy . By 8:39 pm I'm laying in bed watching TV .Jay text me ... hey beautiful, I miss you. I'm on the way home now. .. see ya soon . Me: thanks for letting me know . DO NOT TEXT ME IN THE CAR ! I love you . Jay : I wasn't driving . I am about to leave now . Be there soon ! Jay works hard at his job , but sometimes I wonder about his ex being so close to there family they work together , not his ex that bitch wouldn't work if her life depends on it .. but her family works with Jays family. .I don't wanna be that way but im.human .... when Jay comes home we have dinner together and crawl in bed. We talk for a while and we make out for a while . When we wake up the next morning Jay says are we still gonna go see grandpa today ? Yes of course . I tell him. We get in the shower together and Jay has his I wanna do very naughty things to you face on... he rubs my sides slowly while kissing me slowly moving his hands down my hips and starts the circle motion he says I love you in a rush of breath that says I need u.. I love you too Jay . He suddenly lifts me off the floor and holds me against the wall if our shower and is inside me before I even knew what happen. With nothing to hold on to except him ,and he his slick this is different and scarey . He's literally holding me up with one arm , the other hand on the wall . One false move here and we could both be in traction .. but Jay don't seem like no amiture .. just few minutes in and my feet are back on solid ground and Jay looks content with him self .. when we get back to the bedroom Jay says lay down .. he's not finished . Wow . This guy surprises me all the time .an hour later we are about ready to leave and Jay Says I'm starving ! I laugh at him . He is always starving !! We go to this Lil restaurant, seems like ur Lil o back woods shin dig. Super country bumkin. We are drinking out of mason jars.. we order some fried pickles . Mm so good. Jay seems so happy today . I'm happy ! Thus feels so much better then where we had been .. but I just can't shake this feeling in the back of my mind that there is just something. .. I wanna stay positive. . I just need to be happy .. when we arrive at grandpa's house he's having a good day . He's all happy to see us and ask if we figured our selves out yet . Jay says yes we did . This makes grandpa very happy. We all sit out on the back porch and have lemonade.
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Right Kind Of Wrong
Storie d'amoreThe story of a young girl who is desperate to make a life of her own she needs to get away from her family .she isn't like them at all. The struggle of every day life has almost become unbareable ,until he arrives ...
