Right Kind Of Wrong

living in fear

Tammie sits on my bed Indian style pulling her very red hair up in a bun on top her head as I'm doing the same at the vanity. We have to start rehearsal today and hair can not be all over the place. . When we arrive at the school we are semi late .. these girls are not happy with me cuz I have the locker room keys. We all go in and I unlock the girls locker room / studio room/ drama dressing room. Lol. Well as I que up the music I see Sam sit down in front row. Sam!! Come here I call from side of stage. Hey I'll have to keep running back and forth to do the music can u do it. I ask . Sure he says as he hugs me .. my bbff ! OK ladies I announce .. please listen to me closely I WIL NOT YELL . I say loudly .. last yr. I lost my voice .. so hear me .. the brat dolls u are up first . When they are all on the stage I ask them a few questions and Sam starts there song .. 2 hours later it now 6pm and I'm all talked out and I'm not sure I have any advice left to get. I help run this show ever year and I'm in it too. The next few weeks will be so Uber busy I'm not sure how to do this . I have a babysitting job, school the talent show and a .. boyfriend. Baaaahaaaaa. Wow I don't remember ever having a real boy friend per say. Just boys who hung around and we kissed ..lol. oh lord. now this one has to go make it all official! Like we are talking fb official! In a relationship! Status .. Omg .. .. after I wrap up all the practice people. . I tell them to sit in the front row I have a few things to tell them about my schedule. Hey people we work on my schedule, u can't handle that there are enough doors u can all go at once .. we on the same page her. Yes.... they all say. OK now it's my turn to sing.. then I let u know what times I'll be here if u wanna practice got me. OK. I point to Sam to start my music. I'm gonna sing Reba McIntyre fancy . When I'm done they all jump to there feet and clap .. OK OK. Come on I have few things to say then we all can go home. .. while I'm saying this I see his face in the back of the room. Immediate question how long has he been there .. did he see me sing . Oh lord .. I lay out the practice schedule and hand out the times and plans on paper .. thank you guy ur all gonna be great. I'll see yall Thursday 4pm ! Sharp . I motion to Jay give me a min. I go get all my stuff and turn out all the lights when I get back to him he says remind me to never be on ur team .. I laugh and try to hit him but he side steps out the way and runs up the small isle .. I tell him I'm way too tired to chase him ...I know he will come to me and he does. And I punch him lightly. He grabs me and kisses me . I hear three or four people say awwwww.. then Sam comes out and says all the equipment is locked up here is ur keys .he hugs me tight and walks toward the door. Jay winks at me .. we all go outside and I lock the school auditorium up. I'll see yall tomorrow we ll give hugs and I go to the car with Jay. . He tells me he wants taco bell for dinner so we stop by there .. two hours later full and showered I'm siting on my bed reading of mice and men ... school . Hate it .. Jay walks in my room and puts him self behind me with his arm around my tummy under my book. He has had a shower too and smells like I wanna put this dam book down and attack him. .. no no no. Self control will pay off one day when I have a good job .. self control is becoming harder and harder on me tho..