Right Kind Of Wrong

men cry too

Jay please talk to me . He says I'm sry baby im losing it .. he's crying . I'm scared. He says I want you back. Not just for a night .. I'm worried you don't want that .. he says .. I do want you back Jay. I do please look at me . I say.. he looks at me tears run down his face . He puts his face in my neck again . I hold him . I'm so freaked out . I've never seen him like this .. I'm crying too. And this is very intense .. after a few minutes. . Jay puts his hand back where it was and he's making me very very wet . He kisses me and I feel the tears on his face .. I'm not sure what or why it had to happen at that very moment but there I was convulsing hard .. it was sudden and so intense that I felt myself slip into this dark cloud of pure bliss . He got on top of me quick and he went to go in and I winc. Like I know this is gonna be super tight. He says baby I won't hurt you in his whisper darken room voice .. but he sniffled and I lost it. I pulled him he says slow baby I'm not gonna hurt you ..it's not Jay please ... he pushed in a Lil more and I tilt my head back . It's so good . .. so good . He says u love me? Yes I say in a rushed breath . He pushes all the way in and I'm in awwww . He says baby please don't move . I look at him confused .. he says it been mons . I'm dying here .. I must still look confused. . He says it will be over if u move . Ohhh OK I understand now . He smiles .. I smile.. and minute or two later he moves and he holds me so tight and makes this noise of pleasure. . He collapsed on me and is breathing pretty hard .. I run my fingers threw his hair . And hold him with my other hand . I'm running my fingers threw his hair over and over again . He's content he's breathing normal again . But he hasn't moved . You OK ? I ask .. he says yes baby . I'm great . I hold him with both hands he says rub my hair baby . I rub his hair. . I know he loves this . He use to lay his head in my lap and say do it .. I'd run my hands threw his hair .. he'd fall a sleep every time . And I think he's a sleep now . He's making his rattle noise . I've missed that noise so much .. when I wake the next morning Jay is rubbing my belly. . He's whispering something but I wasn't awake enough to hear him .. I look at him and say what I didn't hear you . He says I need you . I'm sry about last night , it's been so long . It's OK Jay , I say . He is making love to me in no time flat. Not wasting any time and it's good really really good he says say your mine , only mine for ever . In his darken room desperate cry voice .. yes ! I say . He is kissing me with those feather light butterfly kisses that say I want to cherish u for ever .. when jay and I walk to the kitchen a Lil while later ,Rick is making breakfast and coffee he looks very surprised to see Jay and I together.   He smiles tho .. we sit down to eat and Rick says I've talked it over with ur mom Melanie and we are gonna go up to the cabin for a week the week before Christmas.  We would love if you and Jason would go with us .. if u can get off work . Oh wow yeah I'd love to I'll see about my work hours and school , I think we are out the week before and the week after. . Ill find out tho . He smiles at me and Jay smiles at me. .. an  hour later I'm in the shower with jay and he's all about washing me . He keeps says I've missed you , I love you . I know he means it and I know I should be over the moon right now and I am but I feel like we need to talk about a few things too I want us to be together but I'm scared my schedule will cause a major problem. He's not gonna like me being gone all the time .. he never did . And how does he really see me now .. like last night he got to see me act pretty sluty he's never wanted me to do this job . And it know he will want me to quit .  And now that I need it make the money for the Italy trip , wow do I even wanna go on this trip now ..I mean being with Jay will change me ...