Right Kind Of Wrong

he's lying to me and I'm with holding info

We sat outside for while , I was getting tired . We got up early. Jay was having a good time with all his friends, which was totally fine . I wasn't mad at all . I had been talking to Keith for a while . His wife took the kids home a lil bit ago. So he was just hanging out .. with me. Cuz Jay had his friends to tend to . Keith said he was going home he hug me bye and told Jay he was leaving Jay hugged him bye . When Keith walked off Jay winked at me. I waved him over to me , hey I'm getting sleepy I tell Jay. He says you want me to come to bed with you. No . Stay have fun with it friends. I say he hugged me and kiss me a few times . I walked in the house pretty exhausted. And I see Erica , she's walking toward me. Hey ! She says hey I say. She says where is that bf of yours , umm he's outside with his friends . Oh OK just wanted to say bye . It was nice to meet u she says. U too. I say and I'm off to the bedroom . I shut the door behind me and go to the closet to get my bed clothes something warm I'm freezing . I've picked out my onesie sleep suit. It's navy blue and gray striped it buttons down the front and even has a button booty part. It's super cute and warm. I throw out a white tank top to wear under it .. and navy blue panties . Navy blue socks . Must match lol ... I walk into the shower and stand there letting this day wash away . I need to decide what I'm gonna do about Italy . I really wanna go . Like really. It would seriously boost my career !! I know this for certain, but it might end my relationship too. I've washed my hair ,bathed with this body wash that smells so good , and I'm shaving my legs . I hear Jay walk in . He says hey baby , yeah I say ? He opens the door and says I'm gonna go ride four wheelers with the guys for a few . OK I say . He says u sure baby ?yes Jay I giggle . Go have fun. Really. ! He says OK. Can I wake you when I come to bed tonight. ? He ask .. ummmm no ! I need some sleep . He laughs OK. I'm sry baby . It's OK really. I say say . He leaves , when I've rinsed every single part of me again. And stood under the rain fall shower head for another 20 mins I finally get out the shower and get dressed .. I brush my hair and apply deodorant and perfume . I have had migraine headaches all my life , and I think I feel one coming on . I need to look for my med... I rummage threw my purse nope , I need to go find mom she will have hers I know she has them too .. I walk to the kitchen and grab a dr.pepper caffeine is good for my headache too . I ask mom for medicine. I take it. And Rick says u ok.. yes I say I just need sleep . I'm walking back to my room when I hear the four wheelers . I need to see Jay on this thing .... I look out the back window and see Jay on the four wheeler and Erica is on the back with her arms around him .. hmmm. I just walk to my room and crawl in bed . I'm too tired to be upset and my head really hurts now. When I wake Jay is not home here , it's 5am .. wth? Where is Jay ? My head don't hurt anymore but I have to pee and I'm super thirty that medicine makes me so thirty. I knew that why didn't I bring water to my room . I walk to the bathroom , then off to the kitchen for water .. I sit down at the Island and drink my water . I want to smoke I need way more clothes on and shoe's I walk back to my room and put on my slippers and robe .. I grab my cigs and walk to the back door , when I step out side I see Jay sitting on the chaise looking like he just wanted to cry. He didn't look good. I walk over to him he looks up at me , he says hey baby hey , I say I sit down beside him . Did u have fun ? I ask ... he says yeah baby I did I haven't Seen them guys in a while .....