Right Kind Of Wrong

this is no longer middle school

Tammie spins the bottle and it lands right on me. Lol. Lmao. Of course the guys are yelling oh hell ya. Jason walks in the room and sits down on the couch straight across from me where I can see his face. Even tho its sorta dark in the living room. Just a faint light from the porch coming threw the window. So Tammie says pucker up my love. And we kiss. I see jason pull out his phone .. his new cell phone. He's looking at the screen but he smiled at us. After the kiss. Then went back to looking at his phone. I spin the bottle and it lands on my best guy friend sam.. we have been best friends for almost two yrs. I love this guy like a brother. But they are saying I have too. And he's sitting next to jason. So against my better judgment I slide across the floor over too Sam and I kiss him on his cheek. And explain I just can't. He's my best friend. Sam spins the bottle and it lands on our friend Derek. Funny. But Derek covered Sam's mouth and pretends to kiss him. Derek then spins the bottle and it lands on our friend Erin. Him and Erin kiss. Awww. Erin spins the bottle and it lands on me. ... so I kiss Erin ... I spin the bottle and it lands on .... Jason. Who by the way isn't even playing the game. He's on the couch we are on the floor. And he's on this phone. ... so technically. . No Tammie is NOT letting this pass. .. so she tells jason u have to kiss her. Jason then puts his phone down and looks at me with this look that could spontaneously combust a bitches panties right off. Omg!! He motions for me to come over to him. And I suddenly can't breath. Lmao. Like nope. Not getting any oxygen here. But I get up on all four and crawl over to this guy .not really realizing that that low low cut shirt is almost non existent at this point .. I sit up right in front of him. He puts one hand on the back of my head pulls me very gentle to his face looks me in the eyes so deep .. I think it was a question tho like are u OK with this. I lean just a tiny bit toward him and he kisses me three lil peck kisses then opens his mouth and his tongue touched mine. OK I've been french kissed many many times. This was not the first time. But OK what just happen to me. Because I'm feeling things. Things that have NEVER ever happen to me before. The kiss must have lasted a while because all of my friends started yelling get a room .. and laughing. I kinda went all dork ish. After the kiss... like I crawled back to my spot on the floor but I kept my face down in the pillow. And Tammie not too descreetly kept nudging me. I couldn't look at my friends and dam sure couldn't look at jason. But when I finally did sneak a peek at jason he was staring at me. He smiled like he had just robbed me of my child hood. ... Lmao. Oh wow. I'm sweating. The game got old and everyone had to leave ..curfew. so I said bye to everyone even Tammie left me. I was so tired. I was walking down the hall and Jason stop me. He said hey. What's wrong. I said nothing but wouldn't look up at him. He said don't over think it .. and walked in his room. I was so confused. And Uber sad. Like so sad. He just pretty much told me it was no big deal. U know just a game. But it felt like so much more. Like why was I feeling like this. Why was I trying so hard to make this more then it was. .. idk.. I just wanted a shower and sleep