Right Kind Of Wrong

he's much better at the game then I

I walk to the kitchen to prepare dinner. I decide to make a meatloaf and mash taters ! As I'm putting the food in the over rick comes to me and says let Jay set ur phone up tonight. . I have to go now I'll be back after ur mom gets home. .. he leaves and I feel like I just swollowed a duck... HES LEAVING. Oh hell naw ! This will not do. I can dress sexy when I have a person here ,so Jay can't touch me .. but we will be here alone I need to change RIGHT NOW. Hey baby . I turn and HE IS HOME . SHIT! ! Hey sweetie .I say right back. I look around to make sure his dad left. He left . Jay says. OK. He pulls me into his arms and kisses me slowly . When he released me he says u know dad knows .. knows? About us . WHAT ? why how when ... Jay is laughing .. I told him. No no no. Melanie he will not tell ur mom. Trust me. .. he walks toward his room but looks back at me besides he couldn't have saved u tonight no how. .. . I've put dinner on the table .Jay is fresh out the shower and is wearing a pair of sweat pants and wife beater .. I ask him ..comfy ? He says yes... but doesn't smile .. so I purposely drop my fork on the floor and bend over to pick it up ass in the air .. he still doesn't smile .. hmmmm. He says where is that new phone . I sit down at the dinner table with my new fork and start making my plate. Melanie ? Oh its on my bed. I pretend to not be paying him no mind. .. he go's to my room and gets the box brings it to the table and begins to open it. I've made his plate and glass of tea. During his mission to get this phone up and going he eats his dinner .. I don't think I like the phone. I mean like I just don't want anyone to have tabs on me .. and that's a constant reminder they can contact u anywhere anytime. Jay seems seriously happy about it. I can already see this becoming an issue. But I finish my meal and put the dishes in the dishwasher. I drop a fork again and bend to pick it up .. this time it really was an accident! Melanie I need to put this on the charger over night ..where do u want it plugged in at .. idc. I'm not getting the reaction I had so desperately wanted so I'm done. .. he hasn't smiled yet ! And doesn't seemed phased that I'm not really his biggest fan .. I walk to the hallway and take out a towel and place it in the bathroom. I will need to wash off this cake face. That I wasted a fucking hour on ... I feel myself getting more and more angry. He has acted as if I was wearing a dam turtle neck and hammer pants .. wtf? Oh well I guess I'm not as hot as I'd hoped. As I'm walking back my room Jay is sitting on his bed. I look in there and he motions for me to come here I walk on his room ...slowly up to his bed where he is sitting I can smell the cologne very strong now.. it must be soaked in to the walls. He looks up at me in this way he does sometimes like looking threw his top lashes .. it's smokin hot. Like uterus throbbing hot. .. he puts both of his hands on the back of both my thighs. And pulls gentle I'm sorta forced to step closer to him ,right between his legs .. he's still looking up at me . I feel that rush I get every single time he touches me so instinctively my eyes shut .. his hands move up my thighs to my ass . He says in his bedroom whisper voice .. have u been purposely waving this thing at me all night .. I shake my head yes as I slowly open my eyes . His eyes are half shut like he's in pain .. he pulls me on to his lap ,both ass cheeks on one of his legs and I'm now face to face with him. He is still whispering but it seems as though he can't find the words. .. he says You look amazing, your beautiful ,your sexy, ur hot, and you don't have to put any effort into being that way ... and when u do ..it's really hard on a guy who is trying to hold up this super human kinda strength . I have my confusion face on. .. Melanie we have been together for two mons. And we make out a lot. And believe me. U have a profound effect on my man hood. I die !! But baby u don't know what it has taken to keep myself from taking things to far. I know u are not ready to go there . So its really unfair when u look like this .. I can only take so much .. his voice sounds as tho he's in pain but whispering still in this sexy tone. . I think I light up the whole house when the light bulb above my head went off. Wow I had not even thought of that. . I'm so so wrong for this .. what was I thinking. . We sit there in silence for a few mins while I compile all this info in my head . I stand up and walk out . I feel too fucked up to even respond. I go to my room and lay down on my bed ...