Right Kind Of Wrong

the saga cont.

It's 2am !!! Jay has never stayed out this late !! And Rick isn't home either he took mom out to a bar after work .. so u guessed it im home all alone . I decide to listen to music on the stupid box .. I place the ear buds in my ears and the phone in my pocket. I've chose Alanis morriset ! I think I need some angry chick music ! I have been wanting to try my hand a a new pie recipe. . So I set all the ingredients out and get to work .. I'm screaming about its not fair .. aka singing. With flour all over the kitchen and me. When I look up to see mr. Later then ever ! He's laughing at me . Like full on hand over mouth hyena type laugh. I can't hear him of course because me and Alanis are still belting out the lyrics of every female mind ever ! But I see him. He's just watching me like im some dam zoo exhibit ! He pulls the ear bud out of my ear , well sorta flicked it out. I have flour all over my hands or u can bet as mad as I was I would have put it back!!! Baby girl we need to talk , oh lord I'm ur baby girl again. Wth?? Mr. Has me more confused then ever. .. I'm listening. I say .. Melanie I don't get why u are being like this. I'm just doing what u wanted .. he says in his confused sad voice. WHAT I WANTED ? He shuts down immediately. Jay don't like to fight , he don't do the yelling thing. He wants to communicate calmly . FUCK THAT ! I'm mad and u gone know it .. I wanna yell I wanna say every word that has been stuck in my head for weeks now !! He starts to walk away. Oh I don't think so I've been listening to Alanis for over an hour now and I have PLENTY of ammunition! ! We got this . So I throw my pie in the over and go after him . JAY!! He's sitting on his bed with his head down. He looks so dam good. Stop! I can't think about that right now . There are things that need to be said. He peers up in that sexy as hell way .. I scream STOP It . It's not gonna work tonight Jay , this has to be said. He's looking at the floor with both of his elbows on his knees and both of his hands on his head he looks the most stressed out I've ever seen him. I continue. . Jay u kicked me out of ur bed ! U keep playing these fucking head games with me , I can't keep this up ! Every sense we had the talk about waiting which oh by the way u said we should do .. you don't even touch me. And if u do its above my neck!! I'm yelling all this at him ,he hasn't looked up . He stands up quickly .. Melanie think about this he yells back ur pissed because the making out has stopped right ? He waits .. NO !! I'm mad because u act like it's wrong . I say. IT IS ! he yells .. I'm in shock . It's wrong because at this point I'm not sure u even like me much less. ... he waves his hand in a motion that say whatever. Much less what ? I ask. He's walking down the hall now , I follow behind him . He sits down on the couch and leans his head back .. he looks exhausted. His fault he should have came home way earlier. This was inevitable. We were gonna have this fight ! Jay answer me. I yell .. he rolls his head over to the side and peers at me out the corner of said beautiful eyes that are playing with my emotions at this point. I say it again slowly as tho he is a retard... much. Less. What. Jay ..... he's still peering up at me with his huge sad brown puppy dog eyes , they look as tho they are saying just please love me .... I love you ... .. he said it ...he just said he loves me , he said. I love you ! Nobody has ever said that to me. No one ever ! My brain just completely exploded !!!