Right Kind Of Wrong

I'm not able

When I wake up its 2am .. I guess I slept for about three hours . It's pitch black in this room .. but I can feel him there .. I sit up and crawl off the bed .. Jay sits up and says where u going baby . I decide to take a way different approach this time. I'm going to pee. I say in my Uber sleepy voice .. I open the door walk in The bathroom . I'm in there for 2 mins.. I walk out and Jay is in the kitchen I hear him. . I Walk to the bedroom and look for some sleep pants .. Jay walks in with a few drinks .. he says baby please don't ..in his sleepy just woke up voice .. the voice that ALWAYS stops me . It did this time too. I turn around and stand in front of him .he's drinking some coconut water..he hands me one . I take it open it and drink it all. I hand him the bottle . He takes the bottle sets it on the table .. and looks up at me .he says I really really wanna make love to you please baby .. I decide to go with it. My belly has gotten tight with everything his said .. it might be nice .. so I step a Lil closer . Jay stands up and he puts his hand on my back and pulls me right to him .. I instinctively put my arms up to touch him. And he puts my hands down.. he says play along please .. don't say anything . Just don't touch me at all .he kisses me again my hands are by my side he's rubbing my face with his thumbs .. I'm so confused right now what does he mean don't touch him at all ... I haven't moved my hands but I want to touch him . He's kissing me with such passion. . I feel it every where . He reaches around my back with one hand and unfastened my bra he slowly peels it down my arms till it hits the floor , he has left the door open the light from the hall has my room some what lit up .. I can see him he looks hurt like sad .. he sits down on the bed and pulls me right up to him ,he starts slowly kissing my belly , he's holding my hips he peers up at me threw his lashes ,I'm watching him this look is smoldering hot sexy and has my belly so tight I Just really wanna touch him hold him .. he's licking my belly and placing butterfly kisses on my skin as he goes .. it's sensational. . I lift my hands to put them in his shoulders ,he leans back looks up at me and says don't , in this painful sound , like it would hurt his soul if I touch him .. his face his so sad .. I'm nervous, like why won't he let me touch him. What's this about ? He leans back in to my belly and starts the process over again. I can feel my self being turned on so much .. but why ? Like why would he want to do this .. he peels my panties down my legs and I step out of them .. this night has been the strangest night of my life !!! Jay says will you lay down now .. I crawl in the bed and he stands and closes the door ,but turns the light on ... he walks over to the radio and turns it on. Not loud but sorta loud .. he walks to the foot of the bed and takes his clothes off ..he looks so fucking hot !!! I can't take my eyes off of him and I want so bad to touch him .. he walks back to the wall and turns off the light. He's crawling in the bed and I instinctively reach for him like I always do .. he puts my hands down on mattress he says please don't lift them again .. I'm in shock .. why? I ask .. he says just don't touch me please ... I lay there and he lays beside me he's kissing me , those soft romantic kisses and every few secs or so he'll lick my lips it's mind blowing . I need him to touch me .. I need to touch him .. he starts making these S shapes on my skin .. he knows this does things to me .. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's the fact that it's just his finger tip touching me . Barely touching me .. I have the need for so much more every time he does this .. he's moved down to the dip right above the pubic bone and he's very lightly rubbing one finger tips over it .. it's making me move like lift toward him off the bed. I need more .. I lift my hand off the bed and go to put it on his chest .. he leans back catches my hand kisses my Palm and places it back on the mattress ....