Right Kind Of Wrong

disappointed in me ...

I almost lost my breath . No lie !! Jay was standing in the door frame right behind me .. his face was so mad .. like I wanna kill you .. Tammie walks in almost dropped her drink and Says molly I left the stove on at home . gotta go Love ya Mel but I smell smoke . Gotta go .. they run out the door .. Jay walks over and sits down .. he looks at me. .. he says you slept with Sam ... I look up at him . Jay says don't start with the fucking water works ! I'm so about to cry .. it kills me I didn't wanna hurt Sam or Jay and now I've hurt them both .. Jay says answer me with his pure malice voice . I have to move the fear and pain combo is about to tear me apart. I stand . He says don't leave this room not even my dad in the other room could stop me .. he's beyond mad .. I've never seen him like this ..I've never been so glad Rick is home .. but kinda scared Jay might be telling the truth . I sit down . He says don't make me ask you again ! Yes ! Yes ! I did. You heard me say it already . He says u have gone and lost all ur fucking marbles huh ? You don't give a fuck about anyone do you Melanie ? Answer me !!! He's screaming . Yes I do care . Why do u think its killing me .. it's not . Really he says .. yes it is Jay I didn't wanna hurt you or Sam .. I didn't mean to go there . He looks at me .. you started it . No! He made the first move . I just .... you what ? He ask. Didn't stop him .. Jay I was hurting so bad . Our break up was killing me !! You think I'm not hurting . You think I'm not in pain . I say .. Jay says you were so broken up over dumping me u went and slept with ur best friend !!! With no regards for him ... or me .. Jay . He says no . Melanie that boy has been infatuated with you .he loves you . And not as a friend !! You have destroyed him. And me .. Jay I'm so sry .please . .. you think yall will be friends after this . Ur fucking stupid! !! The pain will get to him , he will be so mad that he got that far but couldn't have Ur heart too . He will end up hating you. . Jay ! I say . Please . I don't want you to hate me .. too late . He says. He walked out the room . I'm doubled over on the floor sobbing .. this is pain. Double .. I hurt like I did get shot in the chest with a nail gun at point blank range for days ... I can't stand . I just lay there .. when I do get up. I'm weak . I walk to my room and Jay is sitting on the bed. Head in his hands . He has a bottle of whiskey between his feet . No!! I pick up the bottle he grabs me and says give it to me . I say no ! I'm not gonna let you drink this one away . I'm holding the bottle out of his reach .. he reaches for it and I throw it against the wall. It shattered Rick was in my room before the last piece of glass hit the floor . He says what the hell? He looks mad.. Jay says we got this dad . Rick looks at me . I did it . Can you go please . We are not finished here . I shut the door behind Rick and I turn to Jay. We need to talk. He looks at me like I'd hurt u .. I'm scared he might . Jay please .. he says say what ever u need to say right now because when I go out that front door I'm never coming back here never . He sits down on the bed . He's ticking like I can see him shaking mad .. better make this one good . ... Jay I made a huge mistake. I could be more sry then I am . I've lost a friend and the love of my life . I have nothing left . I'm not sure why all this happen . I didn't mean for it to. As for us .Jay I am in love with you . I always will be . I just need to figure out who I'm gonna be in this world . You made a hell of a start he says ... yeah I'm gonna make a lot of mistakes along the way. That's why I broke up with you ,cuz u don't deserve it .. I sit down .. you broke up with me so u can sleep around ? You said earlier that you were two timing or cheating because ur heart was still mine. What does that say .. he says...that says that I'm so in love with you that i will not put u threw my drama . And no I didn't break up with you so i could sleep around I think u know me better .. he says I thought it did .. but you have slept with two other guys sense we slept together. Yeah. I'm the town whore now .. he turns to me ...