Right Kind Of Wrong

and then that happen

I was not happy that Jay saw Matt kiss me . But the Kiss was more of a peck really . Tammie came in the house and said idk. What you were thinking. That was hot but Jay wasn't in pressed at all. Mel you gotta stop this ! Oh Tammie it's fine the girl on girl is the least of my worries ,he just saw Matt Kiss me !!! Tammie screams ,WHAT? Yeah and the lethal look in his eye scares me I hope he don't start a fight.. I tell her . I go ouside to the patio but I don't see Jay anywhere and zare says Matt left.. oh shit I call Jay immediately. He don't pick up .. I call Matt ,he says I just left cuz it seemed as tho u needed some space ..u got all fucked up over ur ex seeing me kiss u .. I hang up on him .. I have to find Jay now .. I run out front of the house to see if Jays car is here .. it is . So where is he? I hear people talking in the garage so step closer, mark is talking to Jay .. man she's just acting out cuz she loves your dumb ass and u brought another girl here , Jay says she had a guy here . Mark said yes she did but you have known she was talking to him and she told u he was gonna be here ,yall playing games .Jason , you need to fix this with her before u lose her for good. Says mark. Jay says I think I already have she's never acted like this before .mark says you can get her back you just have to quit playing these head games and stop doing that shit !! I walk around into the garage and ask mark can I talk to Jay . Mark leaves the garage , Jay is sitting in a chair holding a bottle of water and a cig... he looks so mad eyes are squinted .. he looks like the bad boy from the wrong side of the tracks .. I walk up to him he looks up in that fierce way .. can we talk I ask.. Jay says Melanie I'm not sure I can talk to u right now ... why? I ask, he stands up and says because I really didn't need to see that , which one I ask.. he looks like he wants to slap me... you kissing him he says . Yeah Jay that wasn't Planned , making out with ur toy was .. I was just trying to get you back u did that girl wrong ! I say .. he slams the water bottle down and says with serious anger .. I don't give two Fucks about that girl. I say exactly lately u haven't give two fucks about anyone but you ! He looks at me hard .. that's not true I thought we were working on us.. he says when we're you gonna tell ME that jay? I ask.. for a smart girl u are really stupid !! He says . You shouldn't have had him here , tonight would have gone better . I called mark an ask him if u had company when he said u did I lost it , Jay says .... I look at him and said this is not my house I don't control the company. And I sure as hell am not gonna tell him not to come over here when u walked out on me the other night!! Jay it's real simple if u wanted me we'd be together but ur uncle was right your playing head games with me ..and I'm done ...... I walked away not even looked at him.... as I was walking in the front door zare says yall ok? No , we are not . I answer her . She says you two need to talk ..we did .it say .. I walk to the guest room where I live when I stay here. .. I shut the door and slid down the wall and begin to sob.. about an hour later Jay walks in the room and shuts the door ,turns off the light and pulls me in his arms and lays us down on the bed he holds me in his arms and says I'm so sry we do need to talk instead of yelling . Can we do that ? He ask I just shake my head yes.. Jay says I did do you and Lynn wrong tonight I was just furious when mark said he was here .. I thought after the other night I made it clear to you that I've been off that shit and I'm trying to fix me so I can be better for you. I want us to be together Melanie I just can't right now I know you don't understand that , but I need to fix me first . And I need to know you trust me .... Jay I do trust you , no u don't you step back and look like u wanna run any time I get mad at you .. baby I'm gonna get mad at times it's human ... but I'd never hurt you .. believe me if I was I'd have done it tonight . He says .. I look up at him it's not completely dark in this room so we can sorta see each others face ..I didn't plan that , and it hasn't been going on I havent seen him in two weeks I didn't invite him here tonight he just showed up .. and he hadn't touch me till u got here with her .... I say to him .. he says I can't ask u not to see him. When I don't have this all worked out .. I sit up and look at Jay .. I tell him .. Jay I'm not sure what it is u need to work out ..but I want you to do it quick ...