Right Kind Of Wrong

back to school

After we ate dessert we go to the living room and kick back on the couches turn the TV on .. it's freezing so I beg Tam to go grab us a few blankets from my room. She does , Jay is sitting next to me and scoots in under my blanket wraps one arm around me and seems real comfortable. I'm thinking ,this is a Lil to close for me . I know ,I like him .but we ladies have some fears when it comes to being so close to a guy during this time. Well at least I do. Next thing I know Jay has gotten all spoonish behind me and wrapped his arms around me. My ass to his frontal area. And I have a small panic sensation. . If I got blood on him I'd die. So I get up real quick and go to the bathroom imma need to make sure that ,that fear don't happen. All is well. I scoot back in front of Jay and he again wraps his arms around me. I really could get use to this warm and fuzzy feeling !! Jay whispers in my ear, u OK ? I shake my head yes very slowly . And I see Tam Watching us very closely ,I wink at her . We sit Watching clueless for the next hour. At which Tam says Mel can I talk to u. .. I get up and walk to my room with her. She closes the door and says. Mel I wanna go to Joe's house with him tonight. But I know u don't wanna be alone with oh Tom. .. we both laugh. No its OK Tam go. I'm fine , are you sure Mel ?? Yes it's fine. .. Tammie packs a over night bag and we go back to the living room. Around 11 pm they leave. Jay is in shock I think. We are still spooning on the couch ... he whispers in my ear ,how did she talk u into that .. she didn't ,she said she wanted to go ,and I said OK. Oh.. he says. I ask him.. what ? Nothing I just know you didn't want to be alone with me all night. He says . I'm fine . I tell him . We lay in the recliner chair spooning for a while not saying anything . He has been rubbing a whole in my arm for about an hour when he finally starts to talk . If u want me to go to my room I will. I don't want to make u feel uncomfortable. . He says , in that I haven't spoke in a while kinda throaty tone. It's sexxxxxxxie !!! No. It's OK . I don't feel uncomfortable. . I say. So u trust me ,he whispers .. I shake my head slowly yes.. I turn to face him knowing we should have this talk.. I whisper to him , I do trust you. We spend a lot of time here alone. He shakes his head yes in agreement. Should I trust u ,I ask and laugh a Lil . No ! He says but he's laughing a Lil too. Why not ? I ask . I'm kidding Melanie ,I'm not gonna do anything .he says. . I whisper darn and laugh a Lil . He laughs too. He pulls me in closer and hugs me. His face right next to my ear and says. in time. .. I find that comforting .. I'm not in a hurry I told u that . He whispers . I shake my head in agreement. I get that u r not ready for a relationship and don't want to go to far. He says. I shake my head yes.. I like being with u ,I like that we are taking this slow. He whispers. .. me too ,I like whisper back. I feel him smile. . What? I ask. We are the only two people in this house and yet we always whisper to each other ,he says. I laugh a Lil .you always whisper to me , I say . I know ,why I've never done that before ,he admits. I think it's cuz I know that ur mom can't know about us ,so I'm always trying to say things with out her hearing me. Then I get stuck in whisper mode.. I laugh again. Ur right she can't know. She would ship me off to bourding school. I laugh. He laughs she wants her baby girl to stay pure .. he says with a giggle. I am somewhat pure. . Ur a lot less pure then I thought he says with his eye brow arched. Oh. Yeah Joe has a big mouth .... I say . He is proud .. Jay says . Uhhhhh. That was 2 yrs. Ago. I say. Jay looks surprised. . What ? I ask. You were 14 trying to have sex ? His look of disappointment screams volumes . It's not that uncommon around these parts I say ... but that's were I learned I'm not that person too. I mean he wasn't even my boyfriend. Actually he was dating Tammie at the time .. Jay has his eye brow raised again. Well he broke up with her like that day and then him and I messed around and then she came over to my house and I told her and she said she hated me and we didn't speak for about a yr. I was wrong I know this. But it's all good now. They are trying to figure each other out again her and I are friends now. And all that drama is under the bridge. .. Jay says u really have a thing for guys who are taken .. and laughs I smack him . No! It just so happens that way. Jay looks at me and says you know u can stop it from happening. The look on his face is so cute !! I'm not a bad person ! I just get in bad situations. But im young and still learning the ropes ....