Right Kind Of Wrong

tell me about it .... stud.

When we get back to zare house mark looks like he swollowed his tongue , he says dam you look so good baby and wraps his arms around his wife . She's so happy. They look happy . He says you look very nice Mel .. and winks ... I walk to her room stand in front of the mirror and think it's too much I tried too hard .. even tho I have to admit I love this look .. he will know ...and I'll look too desperate he's gonna think I'm trying get him back too soon .. or pressuring him I think a million times I should change .. zare walks in and says for a girl that looks this good u look very sad .. I am .. I tell her all my bad thoughts . She says I worry way to much. . But it's only because I love him sooo much and I don't wanna add any pressure on him .. he don't need that .she says girl he's OK .. zare I don't want him to be any kinda way cuz it might push him to go back to... I tell her in my sad voice . She says Melanie u Need a drink .. I lol.. prolly. I need to feel better . I've been tied up in Knotts for days !! And after today I do feel a little more relaxed!! I do .. but I need food too I have had anything but grass all day .. she says mark is back at the grill... I laugh I think the only food I've had all summer has been off the grill . I tell her . She laughs .. I sit back down at her vanity and freshen up my perfect Make up . Just a touch up on lip gloss . As I'm sitting there I hear a bunch of people talking I guess the guest have all gotten here , my butterflies have taken a major flight when I think is Jay here yet? About 20 mins later zare says ur love is here . He's sitting on the couch. . I'm certain my butterflies have turned into terradactles dinosaur that fly.. something like that .. I feel my nerves and wish I'd had at least one stiff drink ... I tell zare I'm nervous. She says I can bring u a shot glass and a bottle .. we laugh. OK I can do this .. I walk out her room and see like 60 people . People everywhere. And then like a brick wall it hits me who I'm looking at .. MATT . U have got to be kidding me !!!! No ! Why is he here ... ughhhhhhh... sad lip .. Jay will think I invited him. And that I'm trying to inpress him .. no ! Why ? Why? Why ? ..I see Jen and Bridget ... ok... I'll just go talk to them ..sad.. I'm so sad.. I walk outside and Jay looks like he saw a celebrity. . He looked and turned and then realized it was me and turned toward me and pursed his lips like wow dam holy shit .. I smile. . He hasn't seen me sense I got my hair cut or any of the other 200 changes I've made in the past 48 hours .. he's in aweeee. He is looking at this corset now . He's eyes are huge .. and deep deep brown . I like the way he's looking at me .. I walk over to Jen and Bridget who are going on and on about the love of my corset .. they love it. Thanks yall. We talk about that has gone on with Matt and with Jay . They think I did the right thing telling Matt I couldn't string him on .. I walk to the tub of drinks and Matt says hey beautiful. I say hi.. but I really don't wanna get caught speaking to him. I stand away from him .. do not get close .. he says wow ur the sexiest woman I've even Seen. U make it hard on a guy to walk away .. I laugh .. and see Jay right past Matt shoulder. . But far away enough I don't think he can hear the conversation. . Jay has this look .. the look says I didn't come here to watch this again . I tell Matt I have to go.. I walk to Jay and say hi.. he says hey baby . I smile. . Jay I haven't seen or talk to him in a long time I didn't invite him.. he says no I did ...wait what .. Jay says I saw him yesterday at the store .. and told him zare was having another cook out he should come ain't no telling what the entertainment of tonight might bring .... he smiles I laugh .. Jay I'm fresh out of entertainment. . He says that's too bad cuz mark got a bad ass karaoke machine. ... and you could really really entertain in that outfit.. he smiles and points to mark setting the machine up.. mark says Melanie she's all yours .. I laugh . No way.. Jay says please... I whisper... only for you ! He smiles. .. I tell zare come help me . She brings three other girls and we set it up . We are gonna sing Carrie Underwood before he cheats ... we are having way too much fun