Right Kind Of Wrong

a girl can get so use to this here ..

I walk around the house turning off all the lights locking all the doors .making sure everything is done. I grab some drinks from the frig and go back to our room. Jay is on the phone .. I set everything down on the table but quickly leave the room. I got to the kitchen the ventahood light is on so there is a Lil light enough light to stand there and smoke .. dam why did I leave my drink in there ? Oh well I need water anyway so I make a glass of water .and stand there smoking and looking at my phone . I text Tammie. Thanks my love !!! She responded immediately. . I'm so sry. What did he say ? Me : nothing yet . He hasn't asked yet... I'm sure it's coming. .. Tam : well just say it was a while ago before him .. idk..I'm really sry .. me : it's all good. I'll see ya soon. Jay walks in and says what happen? I look up all guilty faced .. idk.. I answer .. why did u just leave me in there baby. .. oh because u were on the phone. I didn't want to intrude .. I say. He laughs baby that's OUR bedroom now ur nit intruding .. I know I just don't need to hear everything. .. Jay walks closer to me and whispers I have NOTHING to hide from u. U don't ever have to leave the room again. If I'm on the phone. Are we clear ? Yes I answer . But the way he said are we clear made my knees weak and I want him .. he says come to bed with me beautiful. . We walk in the room and he says I wanna take ur clothes off ,in the light. . This makes me seriously terrified !! But I don't want to disappoint him in any way. He takes my shirt in his hands and slowly peels it up over my head . He is looking at my chest .. he kisses me really slow .. and reaches around me and unhooked my bra he is slowly pulling it down my arms. While still kissing me .. he then reaches for my britches he pulls them down slowly , he lays me down on the bed and reaches for my panties takes them off really slow. . Every move he makes its like the slowest ever. He crawls up on the bed and lays Down beside me. He begins by kissing my shoulder down my arm and over to my belly. He's licking my belly very slowly tho .. it's intoxicating! ! He comes back up to kiss my mouth and says I love you , I say i love you too but in the most seductive voice I've ever heard myself make .. I'm surprised by this. I think he was very pleased .. he moved in very close to me and said say it again. I know that sound can not be duplicated ... I love you Jay .. he kisses me immediately his hand slips down my belly to that dip and he begins the pressure. . Omg I think I swollowed my tongue. . Then straight to the promise land .. wasting no time tonight are we  big guy. A few minutes later he rolls Over on top of me and starts to move .. then all the sudden he pushed in very hard I make a noise I don't recall ever making in my life before can't really describe said sound but it was of the pain nature. He does it again .. and It was like trying to install a brick into a coffee straw .. I know what his intention is here but OK. He whispers in my ear are u OK baby. I'm not sure where my voice went but it was gone. I shake my head yes .. but wanted to cry .. he said baby are u OK ? Yea. I choke out ... he starts to move and it don't seems so bad. It's worked for him. I guess. Moments later he is laying beside me holding me tight. . He whispers did I hurt you ? I wanna scream yes .. but instead I go for ...im fine. He is kissing my neck. And says I can promise u ur not a virgin now. And he laughs a Lil I'm In shock that he has said that .. I look over at him and say congratulations. . U really do own the card now ... he laughs and says I'll cherish it for ever .. and I'll cherish u too.. he's smiling I can feel his smile .. .. the next morning I wake up and Jay is in his rightful spot ,spooning behind me his face to the back of my neck . I can feel and hear him breathing .. this is the best feeling in the whole world. How did I get so lucky. I hear a tiny knock on the door. So I get up put my robe on and open the door. Sissy is standing there with her arms up at me. Omg . U tiny Pint size person that holds so much of my heart ..