Right Kind Of Wrong

this place holds many secrets

The next morning I wake happy like the kinda happy that makes ur face hurt from smiling so hard ..jay looks at me he's smiling too. He says I love waking up to u . I say I love you so much baby ,I wrap my arms around him and hold him to me.. it's seriously 7am tho . Like how are we even awake ? I never get up this early .. most of the time I've only been a sleep for two or three hours by now.. but I've slept so good in this bed with Jay wrapped around me . He's such a loving person very affectionate. I love that about him .we hear a knock at the door , get up Maria has made breakfast . Rick says . Loudly . Jay says OK loudly. I smile .. he says you've never looked happier then you have sense we got here . I say you've never been more loving and caring sense we got here.. he looks at me hard and says baby I'm always loving and caring ain't I ? Yes you are but this place makes it all so magical. He says yes this place is magical. He says my mom loved it here this was her happy place . He smiles but looks kinda sad too .. jay loved his mom . And I've gotten to see glimpses of that love here and there . But the pain must be unbearable too. Cuz he doesn't talk about it much . He says you ready to eat ? I say yes . Not because I'm hungry but because I know jay will eat if I do . It's crazy when u love someone this much , I'd do anything to keep him healthy and happy . I tell jay I need to pee and he starts tickling me . Jay I'm gonna pee on u . But we are laughing . He finally let me go .. I walk in to the bathroom and think wow I have to be dreaming this place just makes u feel happy . And jay makes me happy. I think of all the days and nights I was miserable. This makes up for that !! This place makes you feel so at peace . You couldn't be agitated here if you tried. 20 mins later we are all sitting at the table eating the most lavish breakfast I've ever seen. There is enough food here for 20 people and there is literally 4 of us . Wow. Better eat up . Jay has made two full plates and is reaching for more. ..love him . Rick too. He eats a lot too but Rick is a very large man. And not fat at all . His muscles have muscles . Mom is having some fruit . She's all of 5'0 and maybe 99 lbs soaking wet . So mom eats like a bird ... I've decided I want eggs toast and fruit . These strawberry muffins look Devine tho . I'll see how I feel after this tho .. I've noticed I don't eat as much and I did lose a few pants sizes . But it's OK I'm not to thin . I'm neve too thin .. I'm thinking about my trip to Italy now and thinking about jay saying please don't leave me again . How could I even think of going to Italy now .. I don't think I can be away from him for 8 weeks . That's crazy talk . But I really wanted to go when I was asked to.. ugh nope I'm not gonna think about that now I'll have this beautiful time here then when I get home I'll deal with reality. . After breakfast jay and I take a long hot shower and get dressed . I've picked out a beautiful sweater it's gray it has three buttons down the side it's really cute on . Fits perfect and I'm wearing some sorta jeggings look like jeans fit like leggings . They are sec skin type but in a very dark Jean color .they look amazing with this sweater . I like this look . I do my hair and make up ... jay has been ready for an hour or so .. he says text him when I'm ready .. I laugh OK . He's been gone for about an hour or so ... I'm ready finally knee high boots look so good . Yes I'm super satisfied with today's look . Thanks zare.. I need to smoke so I walked outside and I light up . I'm standing up by the hot tub when I see a lady walking up to me . She's stunningly beautiful. Blonde Bob hair cut fit tone body she is wearing some very expensive clothes. She looks stunning she gets to me and sticks out her hand to shake mine .. I shake her hand and she says I'm Erica , I say I'm Melanie. She says nice to meet you .you too I say . I'm a family friend I have seen the boys in a while . So I thought I'd come see how they are . My phone buzzed . Excuse me I say . It's jay .is call him . Hey baby u have company can you come to the back patio . He says on my way . She looks at me I say that was jay ...Jason he will be out soon . She says so ur dating Jason . Yes ma'am . She smiles . But it's more of a fake fuck you smile. . I smile at her and flick my cig. . She says I've known these guys for a long time . Jason use to help me out around the farm when he was younger.