Right Kind Of Wrong

then that happen

The next day when I woke up it was noon mom is yelling at me per usual. As I climb out of bed I look at the mirror I think I've aged 10 yrs. I look like hell .. I cried all night , well from about 6 am till 11am when I fell a sleep so yeah I've had no sleep ! But when mom yells u just run.. I've gotten her coffee and pie . I'm walking to the bathroom when I see that Jays door is wide open but he's not in there .. oh well I have to pee.. two hours later mom is leaving for work . I can go back to bed. I look outside as I'm locking the door . Jays car isn't here ... hmm I go crawl my tired ass back in bed. When I wake up its dark outside and my room is pitch black. I stumble to the door ,turn on the very Brite light . I'm close to the mirror must see if I look 16 again. Nope I look a strung out 40 yrold .. I need coffee ! As I walk out my room I look in Jays room he's laying on his bed ,flat on his back with his arm over his face . He's shirtless and in some b ball shorts that hang off his hips .. well if he was standing. . He's so dam gorgeous! ! I think I could just go in there and lay down on top of him .. no the last time I did that I was told no . And last night he said he was done . Did he mean he was done with me ? Or just done with the fight ? I'm confused. . I go to the kitchen and make coffee .. I sit down at the table and take a few sips .. and I can't resist any longer. I find myself standing over him just staring. . Why is he so pretty ? Dam ! I climb on top of him and to my surprise he wraps his arms around me and hugs me tight . He rolls us over and he's now on top of me. He's nuzzling my neck .. I'm so confused .. I have no idea why this is taking place. I seriously figured hed say get out .. he whispers I miss you. And for some deep rooted reason ,tears start to pour down into my ears I can feel my ears filling up. And Jays thick lips on my neck . He has very full lips. So sexy. Ohhh why do I always go there !! I'm getting on my own nerves. . Why does it have to be like this? And not only am I so into him physically, but now my heart is involved too!! Hints the tears streaming down my face ... Jay realizes that I'm crying and whispers I'm sry. This for some reason has caused that seriously over whelming tight feeling in my belly .. OK let's recap. I'm in love with him , I'm sad because I messed up by not telling him this. And now my body is in his control again. I cry even harder this is all to much. ..why are u crying baby he ask in his I just woke up panties just melted off voice .. because I love you .. I whisper . I'm so sry I didn't say that to u last night. I'm sry. He puts his finger to my lips,as to say shhhh. I'm so upset at this point. I'm afraid too. Why does this scare me so bad. .. it's scary huh he says. Yes . I'm terrified. I say . In my teary eyes sad voice . he kisses my chest and says we will figure it out baby I promise .. he kisses my lips with those feather light butterfly kisses he does sooo well .. he slides to the side of me and starts rubbing my side .. while still delivering the perfect kiss.. multi tasking looking ass .. I can't focus on but one action at a time. He moves his hand down just a tiny bit to my hip bone. And is now causing me to want to turn over the platinum v card to his rightful owner ship ... I have on some rather baggy sleep pants and a tank top . My typical sleep a tire . Jays hand has slipped down even more and is just inside the waist band of my britches. . He's got a nice smooth slow rhythm of circles he's making on my ass / hip. .. he has very big hands . I'm so ready ... oh no no im not .. his hand is all the way down my pants ,he's got half ass and half thigh in one hand. Yes I'm confused too. But at this point I'm thinking to my self whatcha gonna do mel... he is semi panting . And well I'm full on panting. Like a sheep dog in the middle of summer !! I soon realize that my britches are half way down and Jay has his hand on my belly doing that pressure thing he does right above the public bone that will make any female forget her name. Much less the word no. Head back I'm fully in this moment . Wow. And for the very first time .I think I wanna say yes ....