Right Kind Of Wrong

Jason now Jay

He's looking at me so intense. I swear the boy has these looks as if he can see into my soul. And sometimes I think he wants to eat it ... he puts his hand in mine. We are now holding hands on my mommas sofa. He looks down at the floor ,he seems kinda sad. What's wrong jason? He then looks at me . His eyes are huge. Darkest brown and so dam dam sad. He holds my hand tighter . And says I'm so sry about the fireworks. .. I didn't know. What happen if I may ask .. when I was 7 yrs old I was at a 4th of July party with family and friends a bunch of us kids were out playing. The boys were lighting fireworks. . I was standing behind my ex ... we were kids at that time. But anyway I was standing behind him we both turned at the same time and the firework was spinning he jerked his hand out from under it. It flew up and landed on my face. Then exploded .. I had 3rd degree burns under my chin and on my face. It was really bad for about two yrs. But has mostly gone away. He looks at me as if I'm lying to him. He says he's never seen a scar .. so I turn on the big lamp and sit down on the couch I lean my head way back and point to wear the scar is. He moves very close to my face. He says yes I see it now. It's not even visible really. As I put my face back down he puts his hand in my hair and kisses me again. ... this time tho not wasting anytime with those feather light pecks he went straight for the tongue. And this kiss seemed as tho it was driven by something .. it seemed sorta passionate! !! He is breathing a Lil harder ... I pull away. I can't , wait Jason . He looks at me with his question face. I look down at the floor. Jason are u playing with me? I blurt out ... he looks offended. But instead he ask what do u mean Melanie ... I mean well for the last few weeks we have been ,u know ...he said yes Melanie I do know. He's using his sexy I just woke up grumble voice in whispered tones. And I feel myself needing him. I've never in all my life NEEDED a guy. But if he keeps using this voice .I'm gonna be going to his room NOT MINE. .. I really need him to stop using this voice. He continues (same voice ) ... Melanie if u want me to leave u alone. I will. NO! I think I said that a Lil too loud. Maybe a lil to strong. He looks at me puzzled. No Jay that's not what I mean. I'm just asking what is this to u. Now I'm whispering as tho were in class and the teacher can't hear this conversation or I'd get kicked out of school for good. ... Jay looks at me he's smiling hard. I'm confused. What? U called me Jay again. Oh. Did I.? Yes u did. And I like it... oh . I'm now being a Lil shy. He looks at me and say this is two people getting to know each other . Oh. I see. He said no babe I don't think u do. I'm not in any rush. I like u .. a lot. . And I have for a Lil while now. But I don't wanna scare u off. Or rush this so u don't wanna be with me. I've heard u don't stay in a relationship for long. So I'm not asking u to be in a relationship. I'm just saying I think u like me. .and I know I like u. So let's just take it slow and see if anything happens. OK I say. He smiles. I smile. And we start kissing again. This straight up the most awkward night of my life. We kiss for like 30 mins... and then he stands up pulls me up off the couch and hugs me .. the hug lasted for a few mins at which time he whispers in my ear. Go to bed. I swollow hard. He says in ur bed. I'm going to my bed. He laughs ... I feel stupid. So I turn and walk down the hall I hear him locking the doors. I walk in my bedroom and Tammie is at my vanity which is very close to the door ,Tosha is passed out on the foot of my bed. We both look at her and laugh. Tam is all ears !!!! Tell me everything. I laugh.