my step brother

17 Saturday

SATURDAY:

I woke up and my eyes were puffy and red I sighed and said great what the fuck. I groaned fuckkkk and quickly used the restroom and brushed my hair and teeth and went back into my room and climbed into bed and threw the blanket over my head and sighed and closed my eyes. A little while later I heard someone come in my room and say Elle you awake. I said yea and threw my blanket off my head Shawn said you look awful I said I cried all night he sat beside me and said yea I feel like shit as well. I said I'm mad because I like you a lot and now I can't have you Shawn said well maybe we can figure something out. I said I really hope we can he smiled and said yea me too and he kissed my head and I smiled and so did Shawn he got up and headed back downstairs. I got up and went to the restroom and went downstairs after I used it my mom said Elle whats wrong your eyes are red and puffy. I said I'm fine she said are you sure I said yea and sat down Matthew said Elle hunny if you don't want us getting married just say something. I said WELL FOR ONE IM MADLY IN LOVE WITH YOUR SON BUT THERES NOTHING I CAN DO I immediately broke down and started crying Shawn got up and gave me a hug and I immediately wrapped my arms around his neck and he hoisted me up and we sat down on the couch together. I pulled back and said no its fine you guys get married and be happy together Shawn said Elle I said hmm and continued crying and he kissed my forehead. Shawn said I love you Elle I started smiling and said I love you too Shawn and he pulled back and kissed my cheek and I smiled. I said we can figure something out right he said yea we can I smiled and said ok. I got off of his lap and sat down beside him on the couch Aaliyah was sitting by Matthew he started talking to my mom and they were laughing and talking about random shit. I looked at Shawn and he looked at me and said hm babe I said I don't know honestly he laughed and said alright that's fine. I had my knees close to my chest Shawn put his hand on my knee and I bit my lip and shook my head. Shawn smiled and said hey everything is going to be ok I said I trust me I smiled and said ok I trust you and we both started smiling together. I bit my lip and batted my eyelashes at Shawn and he said stop and started laughing. I said huh he said don't do that I said why he said because it's cute. I smiled and sat up and continued batting my eye lashes at him he playfully pushed me against the couch and I fell back and said oww you bitch and I started laughing and so did Shawn. My mom said ok kids I said huh she said we need to start packing the house I shot up and said huh she said yes. I said why she said the rent is almost up and we are moving in with Matthew Shawn said wait really Matthew smiled and said yes Shawn. He looked at me my breath hitched in my throat and my heart started racing he said well we should probably get packing your room. I chocked out I don't have boxes he said we will get some and he got up and I followed him outside and into the car. It was an emotional ride to the store to get boxes Shawn held my hand and we listened to music the whole way there. A little while later we got inside and I sat in the buggy and took a couple pictures of me and Shawn we got a bunch of boxes, tape, and markers and got in the car and headed to Starbucks. I said wow Shawn said huh I said nothing fun really happened in that house and we both started laughing together. We got our coffee and headed home we started jamming out to music and laughing together I started to feel a little better but also like shit because I really like Shawn. I knew deep down we couldn't date but we would definitely figure something out we always do. A little while later we finally got to my house and went upstairs into my room and put the stuff up. I changed and put my hair up I also put on some music and me and Shawn started packing my room it was emotional but Shawn really helped a lot. Me and Shawn took a break and had a dance party and started laughing our asses off and we both fell from laughing. Everyone came upstairs and saw me and Shawn laughing on the floor together I said holy shit that was amazing and my face was red and so was his. A little while later we stopped packing for the day and we all hung out downstairs and ate dinner and talked about random shit and laughed together. Matthew said so when would you guys be moving in she said maybe next week I chocked on my food and started coughing. Shawn said holy shit and started patting my back and I continued coughing. My mom and Matthew said are you ok and I got up and ran to the trash can and started throwing up. Shawn immediately ran in the kitchen and grabbed a towel and water. I said I'm so sorry he said no babe it's ok and he started rubbing my back and I sat down and he cleaned my face and I drank some water to help calm me down and it didn't help at all. A little while later Shawn carried me to the couch and chilled with me in the living room and we talked while he ate. They left a little while later and I sighed and ended up falling asleep on the couch because I felt awful.