my step brother

155 Tuesday

TUESDAY:

I randomly woke up and groaned fuckkkk and yawned and stretched I felt extremely weird.

I looked up and didn't see Shawn I sat up and said what the fuck.

The bed felt extremely cold and lonely without him I got freaked out and got out of bed.

I quickly used the restroom then walked out of our room.

I checked his studio and he wasn't in there I started getting extremely anxious.

I went downstairs and checked every where I said ok Elle breath calm down.

I took a deep breath and walked over to the front door and realized it was unlocked.

I let out a sigh of relief knowing he was at least outside.

I opened the door and saw Shawn sitting on the ground I walked out and closed the door.

Shawn said did I wake you up I said no I freaked out when I couldn't find you.

He said oh sorry and I said no its ok and I sat beside him and layed my head on his shoulder and he kissed my head.

I smiled and said I love you Shawn he smiled and said I love you so much more Elle honestly.

Shawn said is Lucy sleeping still I said yea he said ok and kissed my head.

I sighed and looked at Shawn and he smiled and said well you are gonna be leaving soon.

Shawn said yea I know Elle baby don't remind me I sighed and said sorry.

He said hey don't apologize I said ok and we got up and went inside Shawn locked the front door.

I sat down on the couch and Shawn sat down next to me and said Elle are you ok.

I said I hate having mental issues because of how my dad was Shawn sighed and said well he can't hurt you now.

I said yea I know because he's dead Shawn said yea and he kissed my head and said I love you.

I said I love you more Shawn a little while later we went upstairs and went to bed and fell asleep.

A couple of hours later me Shawn and Lucy all woke up and headed downstairs and cooked breakfast together.

Lucy said Elle you ok I sighed and said yea I guess so.

Shawn said Elle babe you should talk about your feelings I said I absolutely hate talking about my feelings Shawn.

He said I know babe but you should so we know how to help you.

I sighed and rolled my eyes and said I'm fine Shawn leave me alone.

Lucy said I will finish cooking Shawn said ok and walked away and walked over to me.

Shawn said babe Elle come on talk to me I said no and looked down.

Shawn sighed and said Elle come on you need to talk to me.

I pushed Shawn away slightly and walked away and headed upstairs.

Shawn yelled ELLE MARIE MENDES GET YOUR ASS DOWN HERE RIGHT NOW.

I had tears streaming down my face and I turned around Shawn was standing at the bottom of the stairs.

I yelled LEAVE ME LIKE EVERYONE ELSE HAS.

Shawn yelled ELLE I LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE BEING OVER DRAMATIC.

I said WELL FUCK YOU SHAWN PETER RAUL MENDES.

I turned around and ran into the bathroom and slammed the door and locked it.

Shawn said fuck me Lucy said well maybe you should go talk to her plus breakfast is almost done.

I slid down the bathroom door and started crying and pulled my knees to my chest.

Shawn knocked on the door and said Elle look I'm really sorry your not over dramatic and I'm not going to leave you.

I sniffed and said I love you Shawn he said I love you more Elle I got up and unlocked the door and opened it.

Shawn grabbed me and pulled me into a hug and kissed my head he said everything is going to be ok.

A couple minutes later we went downstairs and ate breakfast together.

After we finished eating Shawn went upstairs and started packing his tour bag.

Me and Lucy did the dishes together a little while later we all hung out in the living room and watched movies.

A couple of hours later we ate dinner and headed upstairs and went to bed for the night.