Science and faith

~Chapter 4~

Amy's pov:

"Bryan did this..." I whispered not looking at afraid for his reaction. Not afraid of Danny, or course not, but I just don't want him to go mad. I kept my eyes closed waiting for him so say something. Or freak out. But nothing happened, he stayed silent so I finally opened my eyes and looked up at him so see him sitting with his eyes closed as well I think trying to control himself.

"You okay?" I asked softly after a few moments.

"I think I should ask you that question." He replied opening his eyes to look at me. I didn't reply to that, I just looked away from him staring to nothing in particular. 

"Am, seriously, you have to end it with Bryan. This is not okay." He said putting his finger under my chin forcing me to look at him.

"I-i can't." I whispered trying to look away again but Dan didn't let go of my chin.

"Why not?" He asked softly.

"Cause I know that he didn't mean it that way." I said hoping to sound confident.

"What do you mean he didn't mean it in that way? That he hurt you? Do you think he did this cause he loves you?!" He asked mentioning to my black eye. Thank god he thought that it was only a black eye and some bruises, cause if he'd see the rest of my body he'd freak out...

"I don't know..." I replied a few moments later when I realized that he was waiting for an answer.

"But I know it Am. Seriously, if he loved you he'd never do something like this." He said calming down again a little bit.

"You think he doesn't love me?" I asked with tears in my eyes.

"Please baby don't cry." He said when he saw the tears in my eyes and wiped them away with his thumb.

"But, to be honest, I don't think he really loves you, loves you the way you deserve to be loved.  And okay, maybe he loves you a little bit but not the way that he should. He shouldn't hurt you without a reason." He continued.

"But he didn't do it without a reason." I said more trying to convince myself than Danny I think.

"What was his reason to hurt you then?" Dan asked.

"He thought I cheated on him with you." I whispered looking away again. He stayed silent for a few moments before he said,

"I'm sorry."

"For  what?" I asked looking at him this time.

"It's my fault that he thinks you're cheating on him with me." He replied looking away this time.

"It's not your fault." I said forcing him to look at me this time.

"But still Am. That's not a reason to hurt you, he should've asked you about it instead of beating the shit out of you. I really think you should end it with him." He said serious.

"I'll think about it." I said not really knowing what I needed to say.

"You're kidding me now right?" He asked with a shocked expression on his face.

"What?" I asked confused.

"You're seriously thinking about giving him a second chance?" He asked shocked.

"Well... Yeah..." I said looking away again. I heard him sigh before he said,

"Okay I know that you're stubborn and that I can't talk it out of your head now no matter how damn hard I try but please come to me if he ever does something like this again." He said pleading.

"I promise." I said with a small smile.

"Good." He said wrapping his arm around my waist and hugged me close. While hugging me he squeezed a few bruises but I tried not to show that he was hurting me cause I knew that if he found out that it was more than my black eye he'd drag me out of this house to his house and never let me go anywhere near Bryan again. I really wanted to give Bryan a second chance but deep down I knew that it was never gonna be the same again. Something's changed in him and he's not the same guy anymore.

"I think you should go home." I said after sitting in comfortable silence for about twenty minutes.

"Why?" He asked confused.

"Cause Bryan can be home any second and I don't want him to see you here cause that'll only make it worse. I'm gonna talk about it with him and if he just saw you here he's never gonna believe it otherwise." I explained understanding why he was confused cause it happened more that Dan was here when Bryan came home but Bryan never really liked that.

"Okay. But if something happens come okay?" He said more as a statement that a question and stood up before helping me up.

"Yup." I said walking downstairs with him. I hugged him goodbye and closed the door after him. When he was gone I walked to the kitchen and made myself a cup of tea, waiting for Bryan to come home.

Half an hour later I heard the door open and close and Bryan came walking into the living room looking pissed. Probably because his favorite team from whatever lost or something but I decided not to ask about it cause I knew that that would piss him off even more.

"You're not gonna say hi or something?" He asked looking at me.

"I didn't notice you coming in." I lied and gestured towards the tv.

"Don't lie to me!" He snapped and kicked his shoes of.

"How was your day." I asked trying to sound as normal as possible.

"Shit. I found out that my girlfriend is cheating on me and she keeps lying about it and when I came home she just continued to lie about it." His face not showing any emotions.

"Bryan please believe me when I say that I'm not cheating on you with Dan. We're really good friends but I'd never cheat on you. I love you." I said hoping that this was enough.

"You love me?" He asked raising his eyebrow.

"Yes." I said nodding.

"Show me how much you love me." He said dragging me to the bedroom and started to take my clothes of just like he did those days ago. But I've learned the hard way that if I stop him now I'll only make it worse so I just let him do on me what he wanted and prayed that he'd stop soon. But he didn't plan on stopping soon cause he only got rougher and rougher and it really hurts at this point but I was to scared to show him that I was hurt. Afraid for what he'd do then. After what felt like hours of torturing he was finally satisfied and collapsed next to me. It didn't take him long to fall asleep cause after a few minutes he heard his heave breathing and I just couldn't hold my tears in anymore.