Science and faith

~Chapter 88~

Danny's pov:

I quickly got out of the park and made my way home. I felt slightly uncomfortable knowing that there were paps when I was feeding Ava in public. I know that we won't be able to keep her private forever, but I'd just like to keep her out of the public eye for a while.

When I walked out of the park I looked over my shoulder to see if I was followed by the paps. But they were nowhere to be seen. This could either mean that they had already taken multiply photos and were satisfied, or they didn't notice me and just left again to go somewhere else. I don't know which ones the one, but I really hope it's the last one...

I decided to stop worrying too much about it, knowing that if they had already taken their photos there was nothing else I could do to stop it, I'd just have to deal with the consequences, and if there were no photos taken, I'm lucky this time.

I looked down at my beautiful daughter who was looking at me with her big eyes, I smiled at her which made her giggle, and because of her giggling I couldn't stop the smile spreading across my face. I loved spending time with her, or just looking at her. She made me experience a whole different kind of love I have never felt before. I mean, of course I have loved before, I loved Irma, I love Amy, I love my family, I love my friends, but loving your daughter is completely different to the love I have ever felt before.

As I walked into the street it started to rain a little bit, so I started to walk a little bit faster to not get too wet. As I walked up to the path to the front door I took the keys from my pocket and unlocked the front door, I wheeled the pram inside while Lola had already ran to the living room. I lifted Ava out of the pram and held her to my chest while I walked into the living room as well. I sat her down in her bouncer while I made my way to the kitchen to make myself a cup of tea. While I was waiting for the water to boil I was debating with myself wether I should tell Amy that there was paparazzi today or if I should just wait until tomorrow's papers. I don't want to worry Amy by saying that there were paps today when I don't even know if they spotted me. But on the other hand, if we are in tomorrow's papers and I knew that there was a chance we would be in there but didn't tell her, she wouldn't appreciate it either.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when I heard my phone buzzing on the kitchen counter. I picked it up and saw that I had a message from Mark,

'Hi man, how's the head?'

Probably remembering my discussing this morning with Amy, he decided to check if everything was okay. And maybe to check if I didn't bite Am's head off for saying I couldn't go to the studio, even if it's for my own good...

'Bit better, just went for a walk. But got spotted by paps, should I tell Am or wait till the tabloids tomorrow?'

I replied, hoping he would know what to do and give me some advice. I put my phone down on the counter and poured the boiling water into a mug before I threw a teabag in the water. I was getting the milk out of the fridge when my phone started buzzing again on the counter. Only this time it was an incoming call instead of a text. I picked my phone up and saw that it was Mark who was calling.

"Hey." I said answering him while adding milk to my tea.

"Hey, so you got spotted today?" Mark asked, getting straight to the point.

"Well that't the thing, I don't know if they noticed me so I don't know if I should worry Am or not." I replied.

"Dan, there is no way they can get photos of Ava when she's lying in a pram." He said, trying to reassure me.

"I got her out of the pram to feed her." I answered simply, taking my tea with me to the living room where I sat down on the couch.

"Ah." He replied after a few seconds of silence.

"And what makes you think Amy will get worried when you tell her." He asked after it stayed silent for a few moments.

"We agreed to keep her private for a while, and I don't know if we will be able to do that for longer." I explained.

"But you do know that you won't be able to keep her private forever, right?"

"Yeah, but... I-I don't know..." I said sighing.

"I think you should tell her, if you were in her position you would want her to tell you, right?" He asked.

"Yeah, I think so...?"

"Well there you go."

"Thanks man." I said, relieved that I had talked about it.

"No problem, but I've got to go now, sorry." He said after I heard one of his kids shouting something in the background.

"Okay, bye." I said chuckling when I heard Lila's high pitched voice shouting her daddy in the background.

"See ya." He said before hanging up.

I flicked the tv on and put my feet up on the coffee table, feeling relieved that I had talked about it with Mark. I lifted Ava out of her bouncer and laid her down on my lap tickling her lightly.

I spent the rest of the day just relaxing and playing with Ava, until I heard the front door open and shut before I heard Am shout,

"I'm back!"

I laid Ava down on the couch and walked to the hall where Am was taking her coat off.

"Hey babe." I said placing a kiss on her neck.

"Hi handsome." She said smiling and pressed a kiss to my jaw.

"How was work?" I asked, following her back to the living room.

"Busy, but okay." She said cuddling Ava.

"Am, I went to the park today with Ava and I fed her there because she wouldn't have breakfast. But when I went to leave again I noticed that there were paps..." I started.

"And did they take photos?"

"That's the thing, I don't know. But I thought you should know." I replied, taking her hand in mine.

"Are you mad?" I asked, slightly scared of her answer.

"Of course not!" She replied surprised that I asked her that.

"It was bound to happen at some point, and if that's tomorrow, then so be it." She added.

"I love you." I said, pressing my lips against hers.

"I love you too." She replied when we pulled away.

"I'm going to make dinner." She said standing up and made her way to the kitchen.

After I had laid the table I walked up to Am and wrapped my arms around her from behind, pressing her body back against mine. I rested my chin on her shoulder while I watched her stirring in one of the pans. We stood in comfortable silence, my hands running up and down her sides.

"Dinner's ready." She said after a while.

"Okay." I replied, slapping her bum lightly before I sat down at the table.

After dinner I went to have a shower and took Ava with me, before bringing her to bed. I undressed both myself and Ava before I turned the shower on and stepped in. I was stood there, lost in my thoughts while I held Ava in my arms. But I was pulled out of my trance when I saw Am taking a picture of us.

"Don't worry, your baby maker isn't in the picture." Am said laughing. I shook my head laughing at her before I turned the shower off again. I handed Ava to Am who dried her while I dried myself. Once I had dried myself and put a pair of sweatpants on, we took Ava to her bedroom where we laid her down in her cot. We stood watching her for a while, while she was sleeping peacefully, until we decided to go and watch a film in our bed. After Am changed into one of my shirts and I undressed to my boxers again, we got into bed together where I turned my laptop on. After scrolling through Netflix for a while, we decided on a film. I pressed play while Am snuggled up to me. I wrapped my arm around her and pulled her even closer to me, kissing the top of her head.