Science and faith

~Chapter 147~

Danny's pov:

Once Am eventually calmed down, we lay down on the couch together watching tv. I was laying on my side with my back against the back of the couch while Am was lying in front of me with her back against my chest. I was running my fingers slowly up and down Am's side while being occupied by my thoughts instead of watching tv. I was thinking of what to do about Bryan without risking that he'd hurt one of my girls. I want to go to the police but if they don't lock him up immediately he'll probably do even worse things. Cause I know how far he's willing to go. And I doubt he'll get locked up right away, so I'm kinda scared to take that risk. 

But I also know that it can't go on like this. Am's fucking terrified which kills me and I can't help but be worried about her, Ava and Liz. Ever since that day Bryan 'picked Ava up from school' I make sure to not be late when I pick Ava up.  And I told her to never go home with anyone she doesn't know. Even if they claim to be 'mummy's or daddy's friend'. 

And there's another thing that's constantly on my mind. And that is that we still haven't succeeded in becoming pregnant again. OK, maybe right now isn't the right time with all the stress Bryan is causing us right now. But the Bryan-thing started a few weeks ago, and us trying to get a third child started months ago. I don't really talk to Am about it, and whenever I suggest it in some way Am tries to reassure me that it will happen soon. I hope she's right. Although I can't help but wonder why it's this hard this time around and when we decided to try for our first child it only took a few weeks. 

As I lay cuddled up to Am, I somehow managed to fall asleep with my train of thoughts.

Amy's pov:

After a while Dan's fingers came to a halt and I felt his heavy breath on the back of my neck. I carefully turned my head to find him asleep. A small smile formed on my face as I watched him looking so relaxed. After a few moments I focused back on the tv, deciding I'd wake him when the film would end.

Half an hour later the film had ended and I sat up on the couch.

"Babe." I said as I ran my hand through his hair.  After a few moments he opened his eyes and looked around him, a confused look on his face. Which made him look incredibly cute.

"Let's go to bed, ey?" I said chuckling. He nodded in reply before lifting himself of off the couch. I turned all the lights off and made sure the doors were locked before I followed him up the stairs. I was standing in the bathroom brushing my teeth while Dan undressed himself. Once he was left in his boxers he walked up to me and wrapped his arms around me from behind.

"I'll check on the girls." He said and pressed a kiss against my neck before he walked out of the bathroom.

Once I was done I walked to the bedroom where I took my clothes off. I was just about to take my bra off when I felt a warm hand on my bare back causing me to squeal in surprise.

"Sorry, didn't mean to scare you." I heard Dan say before his hands cupped my breasts and his lips landed on the back of my neck. I felt how he moved his kisses from the back of my neck across my shoulder. After a few moments he stopped and pushed me gently onto the bed and hovered over me before placing his lips on mine. I ran my hands run up his back before tugging on the strands of his hair, causing him to groan. 

"Are you sure you want this? You know... After what happened today?" He asked breathless as he pulled away for a moment. 

I didn't answer him with words, instead I pulled him down to kiss me again and wrapped my legs around his waist.

I woke up early the next day and decided to make breakfast, knowing Dan had to get up early too cause he had rehearsals with the lads. I lifted my head from his chest and sat up, but before I could get out of bed his hand shot out and he grabbed my wrist.

"Don't go." He said, his voice low with sleep.

"I was going to come back with breakfast." I said as I looked at him.

"Well in that case, get out of here." He replied smirking. I laughed at him before getting out of bed. I quickly dressed into one of his shirts before going downstairs. 

Ten minutes later, I walked back to the bedroom carrying a tray with breakfast. I found Dan already sitting up in bed with his head against the headboard waiting for me. I placed the tray on his lap before slipping back into bed again.

"Thanks babe." Dan said pressing a quick kiss against my temple before taking a sip of his tea. 

As I was eating I looked at Dan who was still drinking his tea, staring straight ahead of him. 

"What are you thinking about?" I asked, noticing something was bothering him.

"Stuff..." He replied before taking a bite of his toast.

"You know, Bryan... Ava, Liz and-"

"And you're worried about not getting a third child?" I guessed, knowing this has been playing on his mind for longer.

"Well... Yeah..." He said as he looked down. 

"Well maybe I'm not exactly worried about not getting a third child, but about that maybe something is wrong which stops us from getting a child..." He explained.

"What could be wrong then?" I asked softly and took his hand in mine. He shrugged before entwining his fingers with mine.

"Something wrong with you or me?" I asked instead.

"I don't know." He replied before looking up.

"Or maybe I'm just thinking crazy stuff because of all the shit that's going on." He said as his eyes met mine.

"Maybe. But I don't want you to worry OK?" I said and squeezed his hand softly. He nodded before leaning down and kissing me softly on my lips.

Once we'd finished breakfast I took the tray back downstairs while Dan went to have a shower. When I came back in the bedroom my phone lit up with a message. I grabbed my phone and unlocked it, opening the text. I saw that it was Bryan sending me a video. Before I fully realized what I was doing I already clicked on the video. The screen was black for a few seconds until it showed a woman tied to a chair. Before I could question myself what was going on I saw how the woman got beaten up, and I recognized Bryan's voice shouting the most horrible things at her, while he was obviously recording this at the same time. The video actually made me sick so I quickly stopped watching it. But just as I stopped I got another text from Bryan,

'This bitch didn't keep her promise and went to the police. Better think twice before you do something stupid.'