Science and faith

~Chapter 34~

Danny's pov:

I woke up the next day and rolled over to wrap my arms around Amy. When I couldn't find her I opened my eyes and realized that she wasn't here. Then I realized last night and remembered that she's mad at me.

I sighed and turned on my back, just staring at the ceiling. I heard my phone buzz on the bedside table so I picked it up and saw that I had a message from Mark. Saying that he can't make it to the studio today cause he has to look after the kids. Glen is in Dublin and will come to London tonight so there's no point in going to the studio today. Damn. I thought that that might distract me from thinking about Amy the whole time, guess that's not going to work. 

I decided to go for a run so I dragged myself out of bed and changed. When I was done I took my phone and earphones and put them in my ears. I put my playlist on shuffle and started to run, just forgetting about everything for a while. 

An hour and a half later I arrived back home and went upstairs to have a shower first. I washed my hair and body and just stood there for a little longer. I thought about going to Jessica to talk with Amy, but Jess said that she's try to get Amy back home so there's no point in going there if she'll come here. I turned the shower back of  and wrapped the towel around my waist once I'd dried myself. I walked to the bedroom and put some clothes on. I took the towel again and rubbed it over my hair to dry it, making it one big fluffy mess. 

I looked at myself in the mirror and thought about Amy, how she loves to run her hands through my hair when it's a fluffy mess. My thoughts were interrupted when I heard a door open and shut downstairs. I put the towel away and walked downstairs to find Amy standing in the hall.

"Hey." I said trying to hide my surprise that she's here by herself and that Jessica didn't have to drag her inside.

"Hi." She replied coldly. 

"What ar..." I wanted to ask what she was doing here, but then again she's living here so that was the most stupid question I could ask, so I stopped myself before I even finished my sentence. 

"I think we should talk." She said without any emotion and walked to the living room.

"Yeah..." I mumbled, she probably didn't even hear that but I don't care.

"Tea?" I asked when I was standing in the kitchen and flicked the kettle on.

"Yeah, thanks." She said looking in my direction. I took these few minutes to make our tea to prepare myself for whatever was coming. Sure, I've thought about what I wanted to say to her. The truth. But when I thought about that I didn't expect her to be this cold and emotionless.

"There you go." I said handing her her mug and sat down next to her on the couch.

"Thanks." She replied taking in from me. We sat in silence for a few minutes, neither of us knew what to say or how to begin.

"Listen Amy I didn't-" I started.

"-Why?" She interrupted me.

"Why what?" I asked puzzled.

"Why did you cheat? What does this women give you that I can't?" She asked looking me deadly in my eyes.

"Please Am, listen. I'm not cheating, I-"

"-STOP LYING!!" She shouted interrupting me again. 

"Can you just let me talk instead of interrupting me the whole fucking time?!" I said frustrated but tried to stay calm. She didn't reply to that, she just gave me a look saying 'go on then.'

"Am, I'd never cheat on you. I-."

"-Can you please stop saying that you did or didn't cheat the whole time and just 'explain' it?" She said irritated. And again, she interrupted me.

"FOR FUCK'S SAKE AMY. IF YOU'D JUST STOP INTERRUPTING ME I COULD." I shouted losing my temper.

"Well go ahead then." She said coldly and sat back, crossing her arms across her chest.

"That text was supposed to go to Andi. She asked me to Skype cause we haven't seen each other for a while. But I felt sorry for being away from you so much because we're making an new album. So I said that I couldn't cause I wanted to spend some time with you. And by accident I sent that text to the wrong person." I explained calmly. She stayed silent for a while until a small laugh escaped her mouth.

"What?" I asked confused.

"That is the most stupid excuse I've ever heard." She said raising her eyebrows.

"Amy, this is the fucking truth. YOU WANT TO SEE THE TEXTS WITH ANDI?" I said standing up to get my phone. 

"No. that will be a waste of time. You know what's waste of time as well? Me being here. Cause the only thing you're doing is lie to me. I'll just go away again so you can to back to your new women." She said coldly and stood up as well.

"AMY DON'T BE RIDICULOUS. YOU KNOW THAT I'D NEVER CHEAT!!" I shouted, not caring about trying to stay calm hoping that that would have more effect in convincing her.

"I AM RIDICULOUS?! YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S FUCKING HALF THE POPULATION, NOT ME." She shouted back. 

"AMY FUCKING HELL! STOP BEING CHILDISH." I shouted.

"AND INSTEAD OF BEING CHILDISH I JUST HAVE TO BELIEVE YOU?" 

"YES."

"AND WHY THE HELL SHOULD I?"

"CAUSE I'M TELLING YOU THE FUCKING TRUTH!!" I shouted throwing my hands up in surrender.

"You what Danny? Just leave my house." She said, suddenly totally calm.

"YOUR HOUSE?! ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY? I'M THE ONE WHO TOOK YOU IN WHEN YOU GOT BEATEN UP BY THAT GUY. IF I WOULDN'T HAVE DONE THAT, GOD KNOWS WHAT WOULD'VE HAPPENED TO YOU! MAYBE YOU SHOULD GO UPSTAIRS TO PACK SOME THINGS AND LEAVE MY HOUSE!" I shouted and opened the door to the hall for her to go upstairs. Without saying anything else she walked past me and went upstairs. Probably to pack her things and leave, like I told her to do.

I sat down on the couch and put my head in my hands. Minutes later I heard her coming down the stairs again and she walked into the living room only to say 'bye', and with that she turned around again and I heard the front door shut with a 'bang' behind her.

What the hell have I done? I've just told the women I love to leave me.