SHIP:
Natepat
SUMMARY:
Nate hides behind a fake smile pretending everything is perfect
GENRE:
I don't know
WARNINGS:
Depression, drinking and other things e.g. abuse
Stay safe 💙
EXTRAS:
Yes another sad fanfic sorry guys I'll get into the fluffy stuff and maybe some lemon if you guys want. Also the start of this is a little something I wrote a while ago.
WORDS:
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Afraid to speak up. I sit alone, hiding in the corner
afraid to say, I'm broken, I'm dead inside
Even the slightest hint gives the same impression. A desperate cry for attention instead of yell for help. Drowning in my own emotions, slowly breaking down. To scared to draw blood. To scared to ask for help. Instead dark swirls of death. The darkness swallows me whole, afraid of losing what little happiness I still own. Hiding behind a fake smile, making it past enemy lines. The people who I'd trust with my life, the ones I fear the most . Sleepless nights, covered by lies. Can we avoid the darkness if that's what we are. Fear of loneliness. Chains of society locked on. A cry for help seen as a sigh of attention. Faking happiness keeps me safe. Despite the hidden tears, the sleepless nights everything
Humanity is the darkness
Which is slowly killing me
Are you really alive, if you're already dead inside?
Nate look a deep breath sitting back in his chair, swirling it slightly. He groaned loudly grateful his parents were asleep smashed bottles of beer circled around their collapsed bodies. The ebony saw their chests moving signalling they were breathing, he frowned at the sight of them before gently throwing his schoolbag over his shoulder taking one last glance at his computer seeing he had a new follower however he never checked the notification, he knew he'd be late if he did. Taking a final glance back at his parents he left the house. Walking he plugged his earphones in listening to Bullet by Hollywood Undead, he hummed along pulling his jumper sleeves down hiding the remaining marks and bruises from the night pier.
The second the male entered the school gates he was greeted by many yelps and happy screams. He painted a giant smile on his face acting like the world was beautiful and everything was perfect. Acting was one thing he was good at, it was the reason he was passing drama with the highest grade. His friend Morgan pounced on him smiling widely, she had previously been his girlfriend but after a serious talk the two decided rather than ruin their friendship but forming a fake relationship they choose to break up and stay best friends. Morgan grabbed his arm directly on top of where the bruise was, the ebony gritted his teeth in pain but smiled through the pain.
As the two passed through the school he heard the cries of Mathew Patrick's friends, they were taunting him bullying him calling him names. Nate glanced over to the blond, who shared a begging eye contact with him however with a breath the ebony turned his head like he'd seen nothing, he had his own problems he didn't need to deal with anyone else's.
3am
It's 3am
You're sleeping soundly
I'm awake thinking of your smile
You smile softly in your sleep
Peaceful and beautiful
No idea someone can't get you out of their brain
3:01am
You've never left my mind
I sigh with my head in my hands
You sleep peacefully
Unaware of the noose you've tied
Unaware of what you've done
3:02am
My head hangs in the noose
My feet ready to kick back the stool
You wake with a start
A sick feeling inside you
You dial my number there's no answer
3:04am
I greet death as a friend
After saying my final goodbye
You don't care
You never knew
You never guessed
3:05am
There is no more to say
Despite his own problems Nate should have cared as he never knew he tighten the noose around Mat's neck.
The ebony was soon to follow.
Neither had dealt with their own problems.
Are you really alive
If you're already dead
Inside?
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So that was bad sorry guys
Feel free to leave requests cuz I'm running out of ideas
Stay safe guys
Love you
♡
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