After all of the drama has been laid out on the table, and almost every single relationship has been exposed, well at least almost every relationship has been exposed, will Nikki and Roman love last or fall apart?
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My wedding assistant helps with my wedding veil, as we finish the final touches for my ' big day.' Once she finishes I take a few steps forward to get one last look at myself. " May, I say you are one of my most beautiful brides." She says putting her hands together. " Aw, Thank you." I say trying to look as happy as possible but my smiles fades.
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"Is something wrong?" " Oh... I'm just restless." " Are you pre...." " Oh no." I say laughing cutting her off. " I am not. We just had a long night." " Wedding night jitters?" " Yea... something like that." " Hey, don't worry. Everyone goes through it. Just enjoy the day." Before I can respond there's a quick and loud anxious knock. The wedding director and owner comes in without approval. Honestly if I did not have to I would not deal with him, I just really want the venue. " Nicole... your on in five!" He says slamming the door. I find myself rolling my eyes at him but relieved, because I know longer have to deal with him. " Don't give him any attention, this day is all about you." " Thanks again, I couldn't do this without you." I hug before walking out the door. I now realize and I am leaving my comfort zone, I am now vulnerable to see what ever life throws at me, now since I am officially declaring my love in public. And that now every choice I make will affect him, and every choice he makes will affect me. I feel my anxiety rising and my confidence failing. I want to go back in the room. I want to slide off the dress and the heels, and be in my safe place? My happy place? Shouldn't that be him? Yes... but it's not. I am miserable covering up this lie. I am unsatisfied. He keeping lies from me, and I am acting like it's okay. I don't wanna walk down the aisle... now... or ever.
I feel my heart pounding against my chest and I feel the room getting smaller. I find the closest walk near to me to lean on. Tears starts to flow down my cheeks. And the feeling of lightheadness strikes me suddenly but not unexpectedly.
" Help!" I cry out. I am then confronted with the yelling of my name.
