"Dear Mr. Nice Guy,
Naalala mo ba nung unang magkakilala tayo sa isang club around metro manila? You were sizzling hot that night. Fitted v-neck white shirt, skinny jeans, well-toned muscles and a face to die for. Kaso lampa ka. Di ko alam pero the next thing I knew, tumapon sakin yung iniinom mong alak.
I was a flirt, I admit. I tried flirting with you that night pero sorry ka lang ng sorry. I tried to show off my boobs baka hawakan mo kaso wala e, deadma. Sorry ka padin ng sorry. Nung una akala ko bakla ka. Sayang ka pa naman. Pero naisip ko baka may gf ka, pero sa panahon ngayon... Ay ewan.
And then, pagkatapos mo mag sorry ng mga 100x, pumunta ka na sa isang corner kasama ng mga guy friends mo. Habang sila aliw na aliw na may ka momol ikaw inom lang ng inom ng alak.
I approached you again, sabi mo na naman sorry. Pero that time, I knew you're into me. Maganda naman ako, sexy, so why not diba? Nagka-lasingan tayong dalawa, lasing na lasing ka at iniwan ka na ng mga friends mo. Niyaya kita sa condo ko, sabi ko pa nga sa sarili ko jackpot to.
Alam kong iniisip nyo, oo malandi ako. I crave for sex. D ko alam kung bakit, siguro kasi liberated akong pinalaki. But to be honest, I enjoy sex, lalo na pag casual sex.
Nung nasa condo na tayo, I make the first move. Pero wala tinulak mo ako palabas ng kama.
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Ako: Ano ba?!
Ikaw: Sira ka ba? Ano gngawa mo?!
Ako: Di ba gusto mo ako?! Sus pakipot ka pa! May gf ka na no.
Ikaw: I'm single, at di ako ganyang lalaki.
Pagtapos non, nagtalukbong ka na ng kumot at tinulugan ako. I was shocked. Bihira sa lalaki ang ganun, tumangi sa sex lalo na't freely itong binigay and with the looks that he has, imposible. He has a face and a body that women crave for!
Pero dahil sumakit ng ulo ko sayo, tinulugan din kita. Tabi tayo pero walang nangyare. For the first time, naguwi ako ng lalaki from a bar na walang nang yare.
Kinabukasan pag gising ko, wala ka na sa tabi ko.. And it turns out na nasa kitchen ka, preparing our breakfast wearing your white v-neck shirt and your boxer shorts in glory.
I was surprised, dahil mostly ang mga kasex ko umaalis kagad kinagabihan or pag gising ko wala na or paalis na, pero ikaw may gana ka pang mag luto?! You smiled at me na tipong masisilaw ako sa ngiti mo. Nag breakfast tayo ng sabay at nag kwentuhan. Nalaman kong tiga La Salle ka pala and may unit kadin dito sa condominium na ito. Sabi mo pa nga destiny, sbe ko kagaguhan.
Pag tapos non, we became close. Dinaig mo pa tatay ko sa pag bantay sakin. You never let me go to the club without you. Dati thrice a week yung sexcapade ko pero nawala ng dahil sayo, you changed me. Pinaramdam mo sakin how special I am. You show me who God is. Tinulugan mo din ako sa studies ko.
Birthday ko non, and you confessed your feelings to me. 6 months after natin magkabangaan sa club. Wala akong kinibo and you just smiled again. Pero this time it's bittersweet.
Alam kong, alam mong I can't love you. I fucked up. You don't deserve a girl like me. Sobrang bait mong tao, and I can't return the same amount of love that you have for me. Kasi magulo ako. I'm a mess. I don't settle for something. Alam mo yan.
Alam kong masakit, pero mas masasaktan ka sakin at ayoko mangyare yon. I don't want you to suffer because I love you. Pero yung pag mamahal ko, di pa sapat. Magulo pa ang utak ko, and I can't get into a relationship. My past keeps on haunting me.
Thank you, thanks for everything. You changed me. Big time. You taught me how to love, even I couldn't love my own self. I wish you'll find a girl who'll truly loves you. More than my love, more than anyone else.
And maybe, if things are still the same after so many years, maybe one day... One day, we'll be together."
Verybadgirl
2012
IABF
