Confession
I met this girl through social media about two years ago. She seemed pretty enough on her photos, and it was clear she was attracted to me as well, for accepting my invitation to take her out over a facebook message, I was really happy to finally meet her and for the fact that she gave me a chance to meet her personally.
On the 14th month of our relationship, she became very dependent on me. She became clingy, paranoid and controlling. I feel suffocated. She regularly struggles with mood swings. Often times, she's the one who's making arguments and at the end, she'll blame me for it. I don't think it's fair anymore. I don't have social life. I don't even have a time to chill with my friends or to play basketball, and when she found out that I broke one of her rules, a worldwar III will surely begin and I have to brace myself for the cursewords coming from her mouth to hurt me.
Everytime that she is mad, she will slap me, punch me in my face and throw whatever she's holding. She usually yells at me in public like a dog. I've tried to talk to her about it so we can fix everything and also a remedy for my hurting feelings but as I expected she just got mad, shouted at me and wants me to obey her rules like a prisoner and more like, a slave.
For the last 3 months, I've just become increasingly unhappy and unsatisfied with our relationship. I feel like I'm not living my own life anymore.
Unfortunately, I can't feel her love and care as what I've felt before. The lovely girl that I met turns to an aggressive selfish woman and what I'm feeling right now is someone is holding me on my neck that I can't even breathe and gives me the idea to just give up.
She's not my type in a lot of ways, strikes my mind several times, and very rarely comforts me.
But despite all the issues, I just can't handle the guilt or thought of leaving her. She's a hurt person and depends on me for so much, I just don't have the heart to do any more damage than what has been done to her by her exes. But sad to say, I am not happy anymore and my love for her is decreasing from day to day.
Boyfriend
2011
Other
DLS-CSB
