Nasa kwarto lang ako nung biglang pumasok si Papa at sinabihan kami na magready since we are going out for lunch. At dahil hindi pa tapos sila Bea magready, nauna na akong bumaba sa lobby at nakita ko na andun na rin si Dad. He looked up nung nakita niya ako and ngumiti lang siya.
"O, you greeted your Tita Cy?"
"Opo kanina."
"Good. How's things between you and Agnes?"
"Hmm... better I think."sagot ko sa kanya. Hindi ko na rin alam kung anong tamang response sa tanong niya eh.
"Well, that's good. I'm happy to hear that."sabi niya.
"Dad."
"Yeah?"
"Bakit si Agnes?"tanong ko sa kanya. Siguro naman by now, pwede ko na itanong kung bakit siya yung napili nilang ipakasal sa 'kin. He took a deep breath.
"Well, I at least deserve to know right?"sabi ko sa kanya. He sighed.
"Alam mo anak, when we planned for this wedding, sa totoo lang may girlfriend pa si Agnes. And I know you know her by now. I'm pretty sure Agnes mentioned her at least once." Tumango ako.
"We knew Agnes since she was young. And the Agnes we knew, was different. We saw how she is around that girl. She didn't look as happy. At yun naman ang gusto ng mama niya, yung maging masaya si Agnes."dagdag ni Papa.
"When we told her about our concerns, cause to be honest your mom didn't know how to handle the truth, lumapit siya sa Tita Cynthia mo to understand you better. And in the course of that, narealize nila na maybe if you two ended up together, mas kampante silang dalawa. Because your mom wants someone she can trust and your Tita Cy wants someone who can make Agnes happy. It was a risk they both took kasi gusto nila na maging masaya kayo. Of course there are days when they feel na sana magbago pa preference niyo, but love is love. And they have now learned to accept both of you fully." He smiled.
I guess it was hard for them too. And for a time, ramdam ko rin naman na hindi pa talaga nila tanggap. They were tolerating it and siguro nga it was hard for me, but sa kanila din naman. But I am grateful na ngayon, they have finally learned to accept me. Medyo overboard na nga lang.
"Bakit ikaw Dad madali mo lang natanggap?"sabi ko sa kanya.
"Well, it wasn't easy for me too. Pero yan ang nagpapasaya sa'yo eh. And I would always choose my children's happiness beyond anything."sabi niya. Niyakap ko siya. I can feel my tears starting pero pinigilan ko.
"Dad."
"Hm?" I sighed.
"If I won't choose Agnes after all of these, maiintindihan niyo rin ba?" He sighed.
"One heartbreak at a time Tricia. Hearts don't mend that easy and we just recently healed ours."
After ilang minutes dumating na rin sila Mama kaya umalis na kami for lunch and narealize ko na hindi pa rin pala ako nakakapagsorry kay Agnes.
Aji. Sorry for earlier. •
• It's okay. I just never pegged you for the jealous type.
I'm not jealous •
• Talaga ba? So is it okay if I visit her in the hospital?
Naramdaman ko na uminit nanaman yung tenga ko. Hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko kay Agnes or kung paano ko sasagutin yung message niya. Nagseselos nga ba ako?
Ayoko. •
• So you are jealous?
Alam mo ang dami kong cravings lately. •
Hindi ko na kasi alam kung anong isasagot ko sa kanya. Siguro nga nagseselos ako. Pero kung bakit ako nagseselos, ewan ko rin.
• Kasama ba ako sa kinecrave mo?
Gagu. •
• What? Nagtatanong lang. Ano bang kinecrave mo?
Milk tea. I miss milk tea. And coffee. •
• Walang coffee dyan?
Wala yung coffee mo. :( •
• Uwi ka na wifey. I'll make you the best coffee.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit but somehow tonight, I do miss her coffee. Namiss ko na magluto ng breakfast and to sometimes wake up to the smell of brewing coffee. And siguro nga, the cold weather has added to that.
Or baka nga I just miss her...
Baka nga I just miss Agnes.
