Shuta ano yun? Bakit ganon?
"Charlie?"
"Yes babe?"sagot niya. Babe? Wait. What is happening?
"Wait... what... why... how... I..." I stuttered. Hindi ko naiintindihan.
"Babe okay ka lang ba?"
"Anong... I don't understand... anong... bakit..." Hindi ko naiintindihan kung anong nangyayari. Bakit ganon? Bakit si Charlie ang kasama ko? I feel like I'm overwhelmed.
"Babe, what's wrong? Okay ka lang?"sabi niya.
"Si Agnes... I..."
"Agnes?"
"You know Agnes?"
"Uh.. yes. Oo naman. Are you okay?"
"Wait, I'm confused. Nasaan ako?"
"Nasa condo ko. You moved in with me since last night. You used to live with Agnes. Babe, what's going on?"
"I don't... I don't understand." Hahawakan sana ako ni Charlie but I removed my hand away from her.
"Babe you look pale. Okay ka lang ba? Or baka pagod ka lang. Baka it's still because of your jetlag."
"Jetlag?"
"Oo. Sabi mo sa 'kin may jetlag ka from your US trip."sabi niya.
Parang lalo akong nanlamig sa sinabi ni Charlie. Lahat ba yun panaginip lang? I don't understand. I tried looking for my phone pero di ko mahanap. I need answers. I don't know what is happening. Naguguluhan ako.
"Sorry. Babe, are you okay? You're scaring me."
"I am scared. I don't... I don't understand."
"Pat."sabi ni Charlie. I looked at her. Her eyes, they were as empty as I thought they would be.
"Okay ka lang ba?"tanong niya. I don't know why but her voice sounded like Agnes. Hindi ko alam kung anong gusto kong mangyari o kung anong gagawin ko.
I need my phone. I need to call Agnes. I need answers. Pero anong sasabihin ko sa kanya? Na uy Agnes napanaginipan kita, nainlove daw ako sa'yo tapos ngayon di ko na alam bakit si Charlie ang girlfriend ko?
"Pat, okay ka lang?"she repeated. Umiling ako. How do I explain to her everything? How do I tell her na hindi ko pala siya mahal at na ikakasal ako kay Agnes?
Bigla akong napahawak sa leeg ko, I checked kung suot ko ba yung necklace na binigay ni Agnes nung Christmas pero wala akong suot.
"Charlie."
"Yes babe?"
"Ikakasal ako kay Agnes."
"I know."
"You know?"
"Yes, you told me. Na yun yung reservations mo for getting together with me. Pat, you're not making sense right now. Alam mo, matulog ka na ulit. Baka jetlag nga yan."
But how can I fall asleep knowing everything was just a dream? How do I get back to this version of reality?
