I don't know how long we stayed there pero bumitaw na rin ako kay Agnes. Nag-ayos lang kaming dalawa tapos pumunta na rin kami sa mall para bumili ng milk tea. As expected, medyo maraming pumansin sa 'ming dalawa and nagpapicture. I find it interesting na Agnes is always very accommodating and friendly. Kaya siya natatawag na pa-fall eh.
"So, how did things go with you and Charlie?"sabi niya.
Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sisimulan yung kwento ko kay Agnes. Of how it took me too long to finally tell myself na all these were dead stars.
"She asked me to be her girlfriend."sagot ko. Biglang nasamid si Agnes kaya natawa ako.
"What?!"
"Ang dungis mo."sabi ko sa kanya kaya kumuha ako ng tissue at pinunasan ko siya. Nakita ko na natigilan nanaman si Agnes.
"Ay sorry. O."sabi ko sa kanya sabay inabot ko yung tissue.
"Bakit kasi gulat na gulat ka? Sinabi ko naman sa'yo na umamin na siya ah."
"Pat, magkaiba yung umamin lang sa tinanong kang maging girlfriend."sabi ni Agnes habang nagpupunas siya ng mukha niya. I saw hesitation cross Agnes's face and she looked as if she wanted to say more pero wala siyang sinabi.
"Go on."
"Ha?"
"You look like you wanted to say something, go on. Say it."
"Did you..."
"Hindi."
"Ha? Why? I thought that was what you wanted?"
"Akala ko din eh."sagot ko sa kanya. We both drank and kept quiet.
"So? What happened?"
"Ewan ko, we were there eh. We were at that moment, pero for some reason, wala eh."
"Anong wala?"
"Wala yung kilig, wala yung saya, wala yung moment, wala yung spark."
"Wifey, love is not about sparks or grand feelings. Love is about being comfortable, love is about choosing the person."
"Yeah I know, but wala akong naramdaman eh. Walang sense of familiarity, as you would put it. I just know she's there pero parang hindi ko talaga siya nakikita."
"Now I feel like I'm lost, I feel like I've built up all these feelings for her over the past years na sobrang minahal ko siya from the start, and there are days I would cry for her, now all of a sudden, where do I put that? Parang you were preparing for so long and when that moment came, parang you don't want to do it anymore." I sighed.
"All those years of building up on this feeling and waiting then all of a sudden its gone. All these feelings that I've bottled up inside me, where do I put this now? Parang sayang. Alam mo yun? What should I do with this? Di ba parang, what would I... kanino ko pa ibibigay yung sobrang pagmamahal na meron ako ngayon?"
"Alam mo Pat, a love like that deserves to be given and deserves to be taken. Kasi naniniwala ako na a love like what you had for Charlie is something so great, it deserves to be reciprocated. You just need to give it to the right person. To someone who would actually won't waste it."
"I know, but di ba, parang..." I sighed. "What should I do with this now?"
"Give it."
"Yeah, but kanino?"
"I can take it. Let me take all the love you can give."
