Okay, this might not count, and it certainly will sound stupid.I bully myself. There you go. I don't know when it started, but it hasn't stopped. It's not like it's just non-stop. Okay, so, people insult me all the time, normally I don't care, but sometimes something in my brain triggers and I start torturing myself, mostly name calling. But then I start hurting myself so that I'll forget it. I don't know, I know it's me, but I truly don't get why I hate myself so much.I don't tell people ear to me because I don't want them to worry.I do talk about it to my psychologist, I'm being tested for any mental disorders. The only thing I openly dare say is that I feel "bad". The only two who care don't understand it and others think I'm melodramatic. I might be.Every time I feel really happy people start judging me, I become childish and it looks like I'm high. I've never even been high. After a while of judging I can't take it and I start telling myself I'm idiotic, arrogant,... after that the voice fades away. Then I feel like an empty shell, it feels like some sort of reset/coping mechanism. I become more observant but I won't care for anything, not in a dramatic way, I will just not care, then I become "normal" again.And it all comes full circle.Best way to describe it all, "tiring", so so tiring. I'm tired.
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Non-FictionBullying is a very serious issue that effects the lives of many. I hope that by many of us sharing our personal stories, it will not only help victims realize that they are not alone, but also help bullies realize how strongly their actions and word...
