BULLIED

Submission 741

• teasing, namecalling& exclusion

• throughout elementary strongest during 5th & 6th grade although it wasnt long or still current through out middle school i always thought people were talking about me, i was EXTREMELY insecure.

• my mom bullied me, she called fat, said id never get a scholarship. she said things like how my younger brother was smarter than me, how i look fat in that i should change bc i was embarrasing her. told me ti go on a diet multiple times. called me a bitch, ungrateful, an asshole etc. my old friends used to as well. my one friend used to make fun of my weight and told me everyone hated me and then went in to get everyone to hate me. this guy i used to liked called me a whale and told me to go back to jellystone bc i was 'yogi bear' people called me ugly and disgusting. this one girl said i was the reason for her depression. all of this lead up to what i believe to be depression. i finally told my bf (at the time, also my bff) about this and he made me feel special but in the end he said he never cared just felt bad. i told my ex bestfriend about everything and she ditched me bc she couldnt handle it...

• i felt worthless & unimportant, fat, ugly, disgusting, a waste of space, etc

• after being bullied i struggle with insecurites about my body and myself.

• I cried myself to sleep alot, music helped me cope a little and unfortunatley selfharm helped.

• i've struggled with anxiety, selfharm, i struggle with eating& i believe i've fallen into a state if depression. i have panic attacks as well

• i have conteplated suicide a few times i cut so deep that i wasnt sure if it was going to stop bleeding.

• ive told a few people about my bullying and as i stated above it didnt turn out okay..

• im not currently being bullied but bc of the past experiences i am extremely insecure and i think im worthless and i hate myself