*Teasing. (Because i am what they called "healthy")
*7years old.
*Classmates. Neighbor.
* I feel weak. Unappreciated, Stupid, Imperfect and Worst i feel as if breathing or anything, everything about me is a mistake. My existence. A MISTAKE.
* My sister but she refuse to believe because i am bigger than those who is bullying me , She thought i can fight. Well, how i wish i was brave like her.
* I thought she can protect me if i tell her but it end up i would need to stand by myself.
* until now. But it's more complicated this time. It's much worse and getting worse each day of my existence.
* Yes. I am still being bullied by reality, by the future and by myself. My own demons.
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By reality: Nothing lasts forever and the only permanent thing in this world is CHANGE. Which saddens me. As if in a glimpse everything you thought was real is bound to change.
By future: What if's. I am afraid to look forward thingking that i will be hurt and be left alone again. I am afraid to end up the same as my family. Broken.
By Myself: I am being bullied by myself. My demons. They're eating me alive. (If i am really living) I hurt myself (Physically) because i feel i wasn't good enough , As if everything i do or i will do will cause disappointment towards those person i love and i punish myself for that. I'm such a burden and i can't understand why i still have to SURVIVE. I tried to punish myself in more ways than one thinking that maybe.. Just maybe.. If i stop breathing everyone will be fine. Everyone will be at ease. I am bullying myself & i can't stop doing it. 😔
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BULLIED
Non-FictionBullying is a very serious issue that effects the lives of many. I hope that by many of us sharing our personal stories, it will not only help victims realize that they are not alone, but also help bullies realize how strongly their actions and word...
