When I was 6, the bullying had started. I was just a cute, cheerful grade one girl. I was adored by my friends and family. Until HE came. (I'm going to refer to him as Bully1)
I tried to be polite and make friends with him, but he glared at me and said: your ugly, I don't want ugly friends. I felt completely heartbroken. I frowned at him and walked off, and then he started laughing and said, " you're an ugly baby! Going to cry to your friends now, are we?" I complained to my friends that I needed space from him. But they never believed me when I said he called me ugly.
As I grew up, I was still bullied. Although many of you think that being called names isn't so bad, I was pushed constantly in grade 4 and was called things behind my back by bullies, and my own friends. My friends spread rumours about me, and told people my deepest secrets.
When I moved schools for grade 5, boys stared at me each day, but without realising they called me fugly behind my back, fish face, f*cking stupid and many things containing the word f*ck.
One day I had enough. I wanted to commit suicide. I chose a knife and slowly, ever so slowly, began cutting. Until I received a text from my best friend, (Bestie1) to not do it.
She told me I have a lot to live for in life, and that if I die, she dies. Bestie2 said this too.
I instantly stopped cutting and trusted them. I took their advice. Besides, I didn't want them to die with me.
To this day, I still feel like suiciding. I'm still called names behind my back. But I know that one day I won't be able to take it in anymore and just cut.
Sorry for the long description. I just need help. :/
Question: how can I stop myself from cutting? What can help me block out the insults?
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BULLIED
Non-FictionBullying is a very serious issue that effects the lives of many. I hope that by many of us sharing our personal stories, it will not only help victims realize that they are not alone, but also help bullies realize how strongly their actions and word...
